Word's of wisdom,

Thank you all, who you are in my life and make it wonderful! 

Have a nice evening!
                                   Love,
                                             Ingrit

Quiet Saturday,

Saturday has arrived and it has been a nice day. It has been a day at home. Just some small trips outside.  In the same time, it has been a nice and mild winter weather. Most, what I have enjoyed has been a snowing. Nothing to complain. Training for free of charge and same time good way to burn some calories :)
I have also taken time to  make my school works. It should have been handed in next Friday, but I decided to do earlier. That means, more time to me and to my other things I would like to do and have planned to do as well in next week. Some coffee meetings and meeting in local Lions club. Same time I hope that I can spend time with handcraft. Have some ideas, what I would love to try. If I succeed with it, when I will also show it.
Tomorrow will I look some more skating. At the moment there is World Championships in skating in Sweden. Have also planned to take my husband out to cup of coffee as we did last Sunday. It felt cozy and good time and something we have missed bit. Espresso House, here we come :D Good coffee :P It is good way to take care of the cold I have got :D
Now, it will be little bit more TV. In the evening it will be my favorite film again - Sex and the City 2. There is some movies, what can be looked as often as it shows or on DVD :D I can't remember anymore how many times I have seen that film, but it is never enough. Always it is good to look again. So, I hope that you enjoying your evening as well as I do. It is a weekend and time to relax. Wonderful weather outside, perhaps winter will finally arrive and good cozy time inside in home.
 
Have a nice evening!
                                   Love,
                                             Ingrit

Cardamom coffee bread with almond,

For a while ago, I made a little bit different coffee bread, what I had never done before. I have eaten little bit similar one and have wanted to try as well, but I have not had courage to do it, because I do not believe much to my competence to succeed in some baking things. Since we had a Lions board meeting in our home, when I wanted to do something good for coffee and I thought, that I can try. If I do not fix it, I can go and buy something from bakery. For my surprise, I made it and it tasted very good. Only negative part in my opinion was, that I had bit too much Bourbon vanilla. It took taste over, since I was but bit more, than recipe had. Here is recipe for the coffee bread.

Ingredients:

Wheat dough:

30 gr yeast
250 gr milk
110 gr butte, room temperature
570 gr wheat flour
3 gr salt
5 gr ground cardamom
1 egg
110 gr caster sugar

Filling:

120 gr sugar
200 gr almond flour
150 gr butter, room temperature
10 gr vanilla sugar
Cardamom

Baking:

2 egg for brushing
Sugar
Cardamom 

Syrup:

1 dl water
1 dl sugar

First step is to do wheat dough. Crumb yeast into a bowl what you have with your kitchen assistant. Warm up milk until it is lukewarm and mix it with yeast. But other ingredients into a bowl and let assistant work in a slow tempo. When all is mixed together, you take a speed up a little  and let it work 10 minutes until it has build a gluten and gets a shiny and nice surface.
Take dough out from the bowl and put it to baking board what you have covered with a bit flour. Let dough rest there 15 minutes under the cloth . Roll dough out until it is 3-4 mm thick.
Make a filling. Mix almond flour, caster sugar, vanilla sugar and little by little a butter until you have smooth filling. Wide a even layer filling over the rolled dough. Sprinkle on sugar and cardamom, roll together to lengths. Take a scissors and cut a ankle, ca 1,5 - 2 cm big bites. Cut almost all the way, but not all through. Fold the pieces what is left and right alternately, but let them sit together as one wheat length. Divide the long length to 4 even lengths.
Concoct sugar and water to syrup and let it cool down.
Put the oven to 180 degrees. Let the wheat length rise under the cloth ca 1 -1,5 hours. Brush with whipped eggs the lengths and  cover with sugar and cardamom. Bake 2 lengths on the time, about 20 - 25 minutes or until it has got a nice color. When you take them out in the oven, brush every length with syrup.

I can say, that I liked the end result. It was perfect for the cup of coffee and it lasted for a while but not for a very long time since all liked it. I will not be last time I will bake it. There will come other times as well, when we get the guests. 

Bon Appetit!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Happy girl in a good day,

Today I am a happy girl. I have got a visit from my home. Today morning I got a phone call from my family member. That call made me very happy, so I changed a little bit my plans and could do everything, what I had planned for today.
Since in outside the weather is as it is, when I had made a plan to fix a bit spring to my home. I had started it with the beautiful tulips on the table together with candles and a friendship stone I got from a very good and close person to me. So when I got my medicines from pharmacy, I also went through the shop and bought a new tablecloth to my coffee table. When I had put it out, it felt like spring has arrived to my home. In the same time the weather outside made me bit sad. I love winter and January is a winter month. It means, that I would prefer to see snow and some minus degrees nor plus and rain. But it is not much to do. Since I can't change weather and weather conditions, when I just have to accept it.

I also got my package today :) I can say only one thing - Me, very happy.  I got my new jacket for spring together with some other clothes from Peak Performance. I have never had opportunity to buy a good quality clothes for me, since I was too big and usual size is up to 44 or in some brands up to 46 for beautiful clothes. Now I have so big opportunity to do it. I can go whatever shop I want and buy whatever I want. It feels good, it feels strange but it makes me happy. I am happy that I have got help with my overweight and that I have got a support from my home, from my other family members and from my close friends as well the new ones who has came into my life. Alone that road would have been long, lonely and very hard and I think I would never could manage it. And to choose a bright and light colors, was never on my list either. Before it was dark colors, now it is totally different. I choose bit lighter colors and in some reason my favorite color has became a pink. Me and pink before was something I never could even dream of. Now, I just like to wear it and other colors like orange, blue, light red and other colors.
On the end I feel my day has been fantastic. To have a possibility to talk in Estonian, to spend time with my family has been very good. I did not let the negative part to take over the positive feelings. It is not fun to start to take a strong morphine based painkillers again after I have been clean bit over a 2 months. Life is like that. Nothing to do. Just accept it.
Now, I hope you all have a wonderful evening and good dreams.
Sleep well!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Wonderful weekend,

Another weekend is soon becomes to it's end and new week arrives. This weekend has been quiet but in the same time very good one. It has been a weekend for our selves.
In Saturday we took a long powerwalk together with our dog outside in this wonderful weather. I love winter and not only me. Even our small silly dog loves winter. So much snow, what can be eaten :) We had good time out in nature. With winter it looks so pure and so clean. Specially can that be seen the places there salt and sand is not set. Just so wonderful. So many people does hate winter and snow, but me, I would love to live out in the forest and to enjoy a winter wonderland.

We also took bit time to us selves in the evening. Had a good food, good wine and candlelight music. I had not had wine or any alcohol over 17 months. I did not want to mix alcohol and morphine and wanted to be morphine free before I take a glass or two. Good red wine for venison meat was a perfect combination.

 

 Today we spent a cozy day at home after the visit to city. They have opened a new game shop in Jönköping and we decided to go look it. It will not be last time, we will visit it :) Both my interest of games was there and also my husbands interest of games. It will be good to see, what kind of games they will take more in. After I invited my husband to a Espresso House. I got in the morning a good news, what made really my day. I thought it was a good chance to celebrate it. After 11,5 months this news was well needed.  And in my opinion, if I want a good coffee in this town, I need to go to Espresso House. Bit same as in Estonia I get a good coffee in Coffee In. Me, I will never say no to a good Coffee Latte :D Especially today. After I visited Kappahl. I found a perfect sweater to me. It fits with my red dress as well with other clothes. It feels once good to go and make some shopping where I can really try everything and not to feel very bad, that the shops does not have clothes in my size or that the choice is so narrow.
Now, it will be a lazy time for the evening. Tomorrow is a new day and new week. Many things to do and fix. In the same time to have some meetings and other things on the agenda. Hopefully I also can start to do some handwork, since now the new computer is installed with needed software and only thing what I need to do is, to connect my sewing machine with computer. After that everything is done and ready.  Now, I hope that you all will enjoy good evening and spend a wonderful time with your family!
Have a nice evening!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Weekend,

 

Again Sunday has arrived and that also means, weekend is soon over and Monday is here again. For me, it has been 4 wonderful days off from everything. My own time among with family. Thursday I had a small trip with a friend to Skåne and most of the weekend we have spend in countryside. Have cleaned Christmas away and visited Skara. I bought on Friday one book by Nora Roberts and it was so good, that on Saturday I needed to go and find a part 2 of the trilogy :D I must say, that I got very happy when I found it. It felt in the morning on the other hand, when I was need to wake up.
Time on countryside just flies. At least it feels like that. It is good time usually. Time, when I can have my own thoughts and just to relax and let everything else to go. Only thing I miss is, my family in Estonia, but soon I will see them.

As Minion says, one more day between Saturday and Sunday in a good weekend, would be something I would really need.
Weekend for me, I have decided, that I have to do it more often. It feels good to have my own time and still I am with others. At least I have fix some more things after a 9 months absence, in my office/hobby room. It felt really good, since I have got my interest to do handwork, back again. Now I just have to fix the new computer I got for my embroidery program and after that I can start to make my things again. My own patterns and other fun stuff.
Now, it is time to just enjoy the evening. Tomorrow starts new subject at school. Last one finished on Wednesday and I managed even my oral exam with good grade. Hopefully the next one will be same. Now I just want the ice to smelt so that I can also start to run. My first competition is not very far away, since time just flies, when you are happy or have good time and I need to prepare bit for it. I have not run that kind of competitions for a very long time.

Have a nice evening!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

A Happy Girl,

Today I finally got my long waited package. Just after the New Year I ordered a training clothes to me and today they finally arrived. After my weight-loss so far, I can have small size clothes and therefore I decided that if I need to buy some clothes, what I will use often, when I buy quality clothes. And again I bought my clothes from Peak Performance.
This time it was a long tights for running. I decided that since it is something I can do together with my dog or by myself, when I will start to run. When I run last year, it felt so good, so I will start to do often this year. Last year I also promised to myself that I will try to take part at least of 2 races. Of course I will not run for win, I just want to feel good and do something for me. I promised this years promise to myself, that this year will be my year and to take part of those 2 races is something what I will do to myself just for at feel good. Also because, I never have had opportunity to run longer distances since I have been very big and weight a lot.
Together with tights I also bought a sweater. On the other words, whole kit a person needs to take time to herself. That should help me to take off the last kilos I want to get rid off. Just around 20 kilos and I am happy. Ok, might be, that I am happy also if it is just 15 I will loose, but my own personal goal is 20 :)
On the same time, I do not care how much it goes down, since I already have won by getting so far. I miss just my training companion and she is in Malta :D She was a good motivator and that is needed once in a while, but she is just a chat away and that is also enough. For now :) Now, it is time to go and take a long walk with Sally.

Have a nice evening!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Blueberry pie,

Yesterday was a slow Sunday at our home. In some reason I got an idea to bake something for the afternoon coffee and the result was a blueberry pie. Since it was good one, I decided that I can share the recipe with all of you :)

Ingredients:

2 egg
2 dl sugar ( I used only 1 dl)
50 gr butter or margarine
1 dl milk
3 dl flour
1 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon vanilla sugar
1 tablespoon potato flour
250 gr frozen or fresh blueberries
Powder sugar 

Whip first eggs with sugar. Smelt butter and add milk. Let it boil up and mix is fast with whipped eggs. Add flour together with baking powder and vanilla sugar. Mix it up.
Take a form with diameter about 21 cm and 4 cm high. Butter it in if it not an silicon form. 
Cover the bottom with blueberries. Pour a tablespoon potato flour over them and mix berries with flour, so that berries are covered. It is good to do it with frozen berries, so that cake would not be runny.
Bake in 175 degrees in lower part of oven for  ca 40 minutes.
Take it out, let it cool down bit and cover with a little powder sugar and it is ready to eat. It also can be eaten together with vanilla sauce or ice-cream, sourcream or so many other ways. 

Bon Appetit!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Easy breakfast,

I do not make often breakfast. Usually I am quite happy to take a bite of crispbread, but once in a while miracles happens and I take bit longer time to make something else. Usually, it is something easy and good and something I will get some proteins out. 
Most often times it is egg muffins I have made. Very easy to make after my opinion. 

Ingredients:

6 egg
1 dl milk
salt
black pepper
half fine chopped red, yellow, green or orange pepper
ca. 15 cm fine chopped leek
5 slices fine chopped turkey sausage

This amount ingredients gave me 9 eggmuffins.
I used a silicon cupcake form. I filled bottom with chopped red pepper. After that added chopped leek and sausage. I whipped up eggs with salt and black pepper and milk. Pour egg and milk mix over the vegetables and sausage. I did not fill forms totally, since they are growing bit while they are in oven. I have them usually in oven about 20 minutes in 200 degrees.
They taste good and in my opinion they are very easy to make.

Bon Appetit!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Beginning of 2015,

Beginning of January has been started somehow well. I had previously decided that 2015 will be better year than 2014 was for me. It has been just 8 days the new year has been, but some of the things what has been happened already, have at least been positive.
After I handed in two last written works to school in that subject and managed to get a very good mark, now it is just to wait the oral examination in next week and when this is over and new subject can start.
I have finally also got back my desire and interest to handwork. Last year I could not do much at all. Most of it, because I had several issues with my health, but also all this made me lost interest to it. Now, after the last succeeded operations, I feel well and it makes also that interest to my handwork has come back. And yes, we do not talk about my shoulder :) That will be something I have to live with and deal with. During next week I will install my handwork programs to my new computer, what I got last year for it and after that, I can start to make my own patterns again. Also my sewing machine will start to work again.
I also have decided to challenge myself. Beginning of the week I ordered training clothes from Peak Performance. I will not start to go to gym yet, first I will take a challenge at home ground. I have started to make every day planking. A 30 day challenge and the next challenge after I have received my training clothes, I will start to run. I can have different terrain and that should be good as well for the beginning. After that I will see, what will happen. My last 20 kilos has to go. That I have decided. I want to feel well again. It has been long time, since I have done some things and 2015 is the year, I will build up myself again.
That would be mean that 2015 will be my year! I will finish the school and my last 4 courses what is left after that one. I will try to visit my family in Estonia again during 2015 and spend time with my friends and family here. I am really happy over my friends. It is also their support, what has helped me to get through 2014 and to see lighter 2015 ahead. They also have learned me that sometimes we must to challenge ourselves, so that we would feel well. Therefore my challenges to me. I believe that those are quite needed.
In some reason the winter is missing and snow. Else I would have tried my first challenge, what I had planned. Hopefully father weather is listening and we will get soon a good winter, so that I could fix 2 of my own challenges.
So 2015. You will be my year and better year. I will concentrate this year for me in first hand and after that to everything else.  Beginning for it has been made, now it is just 357 days left to make it my year. That should not be any problem. At least that is my plan.

Have a nice evening,

                                Love,
                                          Ingrit

Happy New Year,

Finally 2015 has arrived and have been here for 2 and half days. My New Year came among friends and family. I had a good time and good food. What else should we want. It is not big things what matters anyway. It is small things, at least it has been like that for me.
My 2014 was a year, I had not planned for me, but it was as it was. We can't change the past. It has been a year with lot's of feelings, happenings and so many other things. Year, what I would in somehow prefer to forget.
Year started with rehab after car accident in August 2013. In April I had another surgery what made, that I almost lost my life.  Had my husband came earlier to take me home, when I would not have been here today. Somehow someone was looking over me and I am alive today. From the medical papers I asked to get, I saw, that they had cleaned up 4,8 liters blood and it is a lot. A humans has around 6 liters blood in their body. So, the emergency operation was needed and I had to spend so many more days in hospital. Today I am happy that I am alive, since it would have been sad not to me, but to my family and the ones who really care about me. After I came home, the rehabilitation took several months.
In summer I spend some time in Estonia with my family. Got some more medical help, since the surgeon in Sweden was totally incompetent human been.  He did not care how I felt and how the recovery went. Strange human in my opinion. Time with family on the other hand in Estonia was good. Spent time with my small cousin. He has won my heart in so many ways. I am so happy that I have my family in my life and that I have their support. They do not criticize my decisions or thoughts, they support me instead and helping me. In the same time I could help my cousin in her shop and bar. Loved the time I could spend there but it also made that I missed home here and my dog together with my husband.
Back at home, we had vacation together with my husband and Sally in Sweden. Visited Örebro, Karlstad, Trollhättan and some other places. We had our little black dog with us and just enjoyed beautiful Swedish summer. Also took a boat trip on Vättern with Sigrid Storråda with friends and finished evening with good barbeque, lots of fun and just a wonderful time.
In Autumn  had finally my shoulder operation, even thought I had best orthopedist surgeon in Jönköping and he could do so much for my shoulder, it did not have helped me as I was expect. I still have pain in the shoulder, specially when I give some strain on it and I can't lift it as I would like, but at least I am finally morphine free. I am happy that I did not got any side effects, when I was stop to take it. It feels good that now I need to take only strong paracetamol and it takes a bit pain away. More I can't want. It is good enough. Small price to pay to be alive today. I also was very active with Jönköpings Lucia. I think that Lucia tradition in Sweden is one of the most interesting and good tradition. Plus all the nice Christmas songs, what makes people in Jönköping county bit more happier and elderly will get some Christmas spirit. This year it was 16 girls who spread light and happiness to elderly, companies, and public. The best thing is, when we usually have a concert in church for public and in the same time Lucia will be crowned.
During that I had spent some more time in hospital and some weeks before Christmas had another surgery. I think, I had too many surgeries last year, so my plan is, that no surgeries this year. Ok. Last year I also planned only one and had totally 5.
2014 have gave me so many wonderful people in to my life. I am really happy to have had opportunity to get to know them. Kind, supporting and fantastic personalities. We have had lots of laughter moments, but also sad moments, when we had to say goodbye to one of our friend.   It also has been a year, when I have lost some of the persons. That has been their choice and that has been mean that those persons has not been true friends. Especially one. After things did not went like she liked and I just did not follow as I am used to, when we was not more worth to be known anymore as her friends. She is quite similar to another person, who we have been known. That also means, that we have closed company down and are finishing the last things. Will see how this will end, since I do not afraid anymore to say my own opinion. Since the car accident and the unsuccessful operation I have changed a lot. I do not afraid to say my opinion and stand for myself. That feels strange for me, but I really like it. That also has been beginning to new me. I have lost under 2014 almost 52 kg. I have cut my long hair and I am happy. Even thought it is on my half road and I plan to continue it on 2015. I have still 18-20 kg to my goal weight, so my hard work to my goal is still on and after that will start another hard work, to keep it, since I gave just one promise to my self. I will never be again so big as I have been or have been before all this road started. My health has became better after this minus 52 kilos. I do not need anymore my blood pressure medicine, my asthma medicine has not be used as often as it was used before. All this has been worth my long rocky road. Of course, it is expensive to my moneybag, since all clothes I had in closet has became too big and I have needed to buy some more new ones. I have just never could bought so small size. Hopefully on the end of my road, I can have even more smaller size than 40 and 42. Depends on material and cut.
It also was a year, when I have taken long time to make some handcraft. Mostly for the recovery I needed after my surgeries, but also my shoulder. So, this year I plan to make some more handcraft as I did last year. As I told. I have no plan to have any more surgeries. Plan to have quiet year in that front.
In summer I will be finished my education. Hopefully after that I can find a work I like. Perhaps take some other courses. Will see what year will have for me. I just hope, that it will be little bit more my friendly year than 2014. On the other hand, I was need that year as well. Now I understand, what is important in this life and who is important in my life and to whom I am important.
I am really thankful for all my family but also to all the friends, who still have me in their life. Thank you for supporting me on 2014. I am really happy over to have you in my life and I hope that we can have in 2015 much more laughing times and good times together.

Have a nice evening,
                                    Ingrit