Chat rooms,

How comes that chat rooms, can be something what makes you feel that you are addicted to net and for chat room? It has been long time, since I was self last time on a chat room and talked with people. Today, by looking time now, must say already yesterday, since time has been enemy in that subject.
I feel like I am addicted when I open chat room. When you open it, it makes to remind how it was last time, you start to talk, soon you see people, whom you recognized, that you talked last time with them and when it starts to just go. I had it exactly :D
I tried today to avoid it, since I remembered from last time how it went, but something was stronger than my will to say no :D Perhaps it was also curiosity that reminded last time, how interesting it was and reminded talk with people. It makes also feel, that you can be just yourself and not hide your feelings and emotions behind mask. You can just tell out your anonymous opinion and know, that no one don't know who are you, since usually you make a alien name to use, not your own real name. There will be always that risk, that you might be recognized by someone, but that person can't be 100% sure either, if he/she has not been with you by time you talked at chat room. That feeling makes people to feel free. Sometimes it is very good and people can tell out their own opinion and not fear that someone might dislike self the person.
So, now I need to try to close my chat, finish here the text and go to sleep :D Tomorrow will be again a new day :) Hopefully better than today :P

Summer 2009

It has been for a while, I wrote last time here. With that time, has been happen so many different things. I have enjoyed nice summer in Estonia. Have been cooked bit time at beach, so that after I looked out like a red lobster :) It was just very very painful after that couple of days ;) :P
It also has been good summer, what I have spend and enjoyed with my friends and family. It has made feeling well and relaxed. Most thing what I have enjoyed in August, was 3 weeks together with my boyfriend. It felt so good. By now, almost all my family members have met him and so far they also like him. I tried to scare my boyfriend away with my aunt, but that did not succeed :D It ended on the other hand, that my aunt likes him :D At least now I know how easy is to buy people away with nice and friendly smile and of course I can't forget part what helped my boyfriend as well and of course it was Smokehead at the car on the way home from Latvia.
This summer has been also bit travelling. First we travelled bit around in South-Estonia with my boyfriend, spend good times in the evening with my family by barbecue, real Estonian sauna, small bonfire. We visited also with him and my aunt Turaida and Sigulda in Latvia and week after had 5 active days with my partner and his friends around here in Estonia. So, now I also can say that I have been in Narva, what is as close to Russia as it can be. Just only bridge between Narva and Ivanvgorod. We also visited highest waterfall in Estonia and it was really beautiful. Also visited Haapsalu and of course Tallinn. Also have been spend a week of my holiday in Sweden. It was first time I took that trip almost all way with car, why almost, is simple reason. There has to cross first the Baltic sea with a ferry and in some strange reason it is monopoly by Tallink who travels that way directly and that is sad. I hope that one day there is more different companies who sails between Stockholm and Tallinn and not only Tallink. Perhaps also Viking Line, in my opinion they are nice and friendly company :)
By the end, it has been nice summer what I have enjoyed a lot. Also this summer has been quite nice with sun and nice warm weather. So this year can't say that it has been same as Autumn, as we usually say ;)

Makeover day,

So today finally I took and killed Blond person inside me. I thought that if my life changes and has planned to changes, that when I as well need to make some changes. Changes can be good and bad, but I do hope and as well think and believe, that the change I made today was very good for me. It is of course my own opinion, but usually it is Me and my opinion what counts in the end of the day. I admit I listen also people around me, who are very important for me and dear to me, but I also know that they are in the end wishing me all to be good. They don't want bad things to happen to me. I know, it is their way to protect me.
So, for a while ago, I decided that before my vacation, I will want to have changes in my life and that this first longer vacation together with my partner would be nice and good for both of us.
Here is pictures of my changes, what was made today with me. I will add a picture before and after of me:

Here is pictures of me Before today:





And here is pictures of me After today:

The Botanical Garden in Tartu,

Last weekend I visited my best friend in Tartu. I had been several times during this year there and we had planned to visit one place, but every time we wanted to go to The Botanical Garden, when weather was against us s well time. Finally last weekend we had opportunity to visit the place and I must say, it was very beautiful. I really liked it. I could not remember much, since last time I visited that place I was small and was still going on primary school. I was happy to visit that place again, since it was very beautiful, at least that is my opinion. I will also add pictures about the place. That visit made me to wish to have self a garden and see how beautiful flowers there can be put to grow.

Here I will also add some information about The Botanical Garden:
The Botanical Garden of the University of Tartu was founded in 1803, near what is now the Vanemuine Old Theatre House. In 1806 the garden was relocated to more suitable site, on the ruins of the ancient city wall and fortifications near the river and ponds. The first director of the garden was Prof. Gottfried Albrecht Germann and the first chief gardener in duty was Johann Anton Weinmann. The first master plan of the Garden was made by Weinmann and it serves till nowadays. In 1811 Prof. Carl Friedrich Ledebour was nominated the director. Under his active leadership, the collections of the Garden were enriched by many new species, collected from Siberia and other unexplored regions of the Russian Empire, and firstly described by Ledebour. Most of them reached Western Europe via our Garden. Many other famous botanists as Trautvetter, Maximovicz, Bunge, Russow, Kuznetsov, Lippmaa have contributed to the development of this marvelous Garden. The Garden contains several monuments gratefully reviving the memory of our forerunners contribution.
More information and also other things can be read self at:

Happiness,

I am using quite much Orkut and there is tradition that every day you get a new fortune sentence. So I did got it also today, and that made me to think about it. The sentence I got is:

Today's fortune: Get happiness out of your work or you may never know what happiness is.

This sentence made me to think, what is happiness at all? Is it something we can see or feel or hear? Does it has colors or looks? One question just raises other one and so on and on. What would people see or think about happiness?
I believe as many people lives in world, as much different opinions,feelings they think about, when you ask from them, what is happiness in their opinion.
So that means, I can say only my own opinion about it and see, how others think about it, if they happens to read my thoughts and opinion.
For me, I can see that happiness is something what makes me smile, makes me to think back for good times I have had and think about future for times to come. I believe, that even on a hard rough day, you can find some strength inside what makes you smile and happy. I believe that it is something what makes me feel good. So in my opinion I can say that it is the way I feel and my mind is. You can be happy over small things and over big things, sometimes I think that a small thing can overweight bigger things and just a small thing can be beginning for something bigger and it gives end result, that you are happy and joyful and feeling well.

I also looked up at Wikipedia what they say about happiness and there was quite many things. So I decided to add link here, that you all can see and read about it self :)