New project,

Last couple of days I have tried to make some handwork again. I have missed it, but unfortunately my shoulder makes, that I have big restrictions how much I can do it. That feels sad for me, since I love to go into my own bubble and make something nice for myself, my home, my friends, my family and for my costumers. Always the results are different and still personal, since I love to put my heart on my works I do.
The project, what I have now on my hand is a curtain into the kitchen, so that it should fit with other things there what I bought for the present card I got as Christmas present. In the same time, it is my own made and feels little bit more personal, since others does not have precisely that one. As I have said before, even thought that pattern is the same, when materials can be different, embroidery thread colors are different and that makes, that end result is never not the same.
Hopefully my shoulder will keep some how as long as it takes to finish the project I have for my own home :)
So, hopefully soon, I can show the final result. I have loaded home with some more thread for the project :)

Have a nice evening and enjoy the upcoming Valentines Day!

10-Years,

10-years - is it a long time or is it a short time or is it exactly as long time as it should be? That is a good questions. I believe it depends a lot of situations.
It can be long time, when you missing someone as in my case it is. It is exactly that many years, since my beloved mother passed away. It has not been easy time for me, since I can't go and talk with her on eye to eye, even if I would want it. I can never ask advice or just tell her how happy I am or how sad I am.
It can be exactly as long time as it should be. In my mothers case I believe it is right, since she did not had to suffer longer with her sickness. When people ask, why she died and I answer that she had diabetes, when I am quite surprised that people believes that , if diabetic person gets insulin, when person should be alive. The problem is, that all the complication what comes with sickness, is what makes that person dies one day.
it can be short time. In my mothers case, she did not see her first grandson. For him, it has been short time yet to be in this world and hopefully he will have a lot of decades in front of him. My mother passed away just 2 months and 2 days before her first grandson was born.
All in all, I am both happy and sad that I have lost my mother. Now would many say that I must be crazy, but I am not that. I am happy that she does not have to suffer anymore. At take so many times insulin in a day and still feel pain and not well, that is not a good life. I am sad, because I cant spend my time with her anymore. That makes it harder for me.
I am happy that I am still having my family, who cares of me and others and that I have my friends, who is here for me, when I feel sad. I  am happy to have those people around me, but it is not the same as to spend time with mother.
We can be angry to our parents, we can be happy, but it does not matter anymore after they have passed away and we cannot say to them, that we are happy, that they are our parents. We should think before for that and not let conflicts to take over the love and cherish that they have been brought us to this life.

Help needed,

I have plan to change my homepage for y handwork and what would be with much easier and shorter name as it is right now.
The requirements for new web address are:
- that it is easy name
- that it would be related with my handwork
- that it would be possible to understand or easy to use in all 3 languages - Estonian, Swedish and English. 
My brain has said a stop and I need my handwork facebook page liker's or anyone else who is willing to helm me, help with brainstorming for new page address. The address I have today is:
http://www.handarbeteopresents.n.nu/
Until to 15th of February are all ideas welcome as PM in my facebook handwork page or comment here below or just send me an e-mail.
The person, who's contributions will be taken to use, will get a small surprise from me.
Big thank you for all, who takes time to help me on this.

Love, Ingrit

New chapter,

Hello February. This years first month has been left behind and new month has arrived. Soon is spring, summer, autumn and then again winter and Christmas. The same is with doors - one is closing and other one will be opened.
Yesterday I closed one door and opened another door. After almost 4 years, was time for me to leave the company I have been part since beginning. It felt right decision after what have been happened. I did take to consideration, what my doctor had pointed me out for several times after my car accident in august and left my work. How does it feel - I must admit, that feels  like a big relief has became over. It has brought some good times, but also quite many hard and tough times. It has made, that if I take all and all under to consideration, when I regret all this quite much. In the same time, we can't turn back in clock even if we would want it, so I take it as the lesson. Only thought as a hard and expensive lesson in all ways. So, I am quite happy, that this chapter is finished in my life. Will I miss something - yes of course. I will come miss some of the costumers. It was always good to go, when you knew that you was waited. Some elderly costumers liked that we came to them and took a short moment to talk with them, before we left them and went to other costumers. It was the good moments. I will miss the courses and interesting meetings I have attend under the years, I have been part of the company. One thing I am sure - I will not miss the tough times what has been and what will still come.
Today I opened new door for my future. I feel more relieved and hopefully soon even more happier. I hope to feel more cheerful. One thing I am very sure - I am one step closer to fill my this years goal, what I have decided last year in Christmas. As I decided then - this is my year. All steps what I will make this year, will have significant importance for my future years.
It will be interesting to see, what the future will bring. I am sure in one thing - It will be as I want it to be. It is still me, who has chance to change it and make it better. It is still me, who will live my own life and I do not have to let others to say, how I should live it.
My next step will be to start to read again and take my exams and do, what I love to do - be part of our local Lions Club and try to take hand of my handwork as much as my shoulder will let me to make it. Hopefully now, after I have left physical work behind, my shoulder will get a little better and I would not need so much strong painkillers as I have taken for last month. Now I just have to let time to show me, how it all will end up. I am very thankful over my family and my close friends, who is supporting me and giving me advice and just are by my side. I would have been lost without them, since they are the ones I can turn to, when I feel like I need to talk with someone or when I need advice. I am very thankful that they are supporting me on this. I believe, that in the end, all just will be fine.

Beginning of New Year,

Soon half the January has passed and just only 11, 5 months is left until new year. Time has went fast in my opinion, but it is always like that, if there is much to do or you have good time. For me, it has been both.
As I told last time, when this is My year and I have started to work towards my own promise to me. Soon I will leave from the company, what I have owned together with other girl for over 3,5 years. For one time, I must start to think of myself. After the accident  my doctor told me to find other job, since I managed to damage my shoulder too seriously and to live with it and have some kind of decent life, when I have to do something else. One way, easy to say, but I also have understand that health must come for first time for me in first hand, since I hope I have lots of years still in front of me. To leave company, it was not easy decision, but in same time it was. Every decisions we make, have 2 sides and for me, I feel and think, that my decision was totally right. Should I regret that decision - No, why should I. My family and my friends is supporting me and there is always someone who is angry and disappointed over our decisions we make in life. After a week work, I also can see, that my decision is most right, since it makes hurt every day like hell, when I have work and I am not the one, who gives up easy with pain. As it is, we live only once and when I prefer it would be as good as it can be.
New year also have started with our annual party when the Christmas tree is "stripped" of decorations. It was very good party. We was quite many member with the spouses. Usually one part of family is member in Lions Club, but in our case, when both me and my husband are member in our local Lions Club. In our annual party all family is invited and we had also some guests. Some potential new members, who might will join with us, in our club and that feels good. We need a more members, but also more younger members, if we would like that our club should having also many good years in front of us, so that we could make a difference in peoples lives. Here I can be very sure, Lions makes difference not just only other persons lives, who will get help in somehow from through different Lions Clubs around the world, it makes also difference Lions clubs members lives.
Since I became a vice president in our local club, I have understand that it is not the members who have put hours in their lives to Lions, it is also partners, who does it. Yesterday in our party, I tried to show my appreciation towards to members and the ones, who is not yet our members, but might became. I feel, it is important to hold our relations we have, so that all should feel that, what they do, all this is appreciated in club. I had honor to give out one Melvin Jones Fellowship award and also one Progressive Melvin Jones Fellowship award. That is honor for me a new member in Lions, to show members that all their hard work is appreciated. It feels actually good. All and all, our annual party went very well. We had good music, good food, good company and a lot fun. Nothing else matters in those moments and for me, members of Lions Club Jönköping has a special place in my heart, since I was so warmly welcomed in Sweden, after I moved here.
So, as I can say, my year has started well. At least precisely as I have wanted. New chapter in my life has began and one way I must say it is thanks for the accident, since that has made me to realize, what is important in this life. Family, health, close friends, close people in life and when other things. I have understand at be angry, stressed  it is nothing what is important. Life is too short.
Have a nice day!