Eleven years,

Time goes so fast. Another year has passed without my mother. It has not been easy time and on the other hand it has been time, what has gone well anyway. I know that it is hard for me, but I believe also that it is relief for her since she does not have to fight with the diabetes and it's complications anymore. So my sense says one thing but my heart says another.
11 years is a long time. I feel like she has missed quite much from our lives and we have missed to be part of her life. She has missed her grandchildren, our weddings, our good and happy times, but also our sad times.
So much people I meet and have met, when I also meet quite much unacknowledged about diabetes. So many persons think, that everything is fine from the day you start to take insulin, but it is not so. It is much more complicated and still, we do not hear much talk about diabetes as we hear about cancer, heart deceases and so much more. It is not right, but it is my opinion. Diabetes is also very serious sickness. Hopefully there comes the day, when we start to hear also more about that.
Different from the last year is also, that this year my mother is not anymore alone. She is together with my grandmother and grandfather. We buried her ashes from one graveyard to another, so that my brother would have easier to visit her grave but also that others could do it. Before was it mostly me or my brother, who visited her grave, but now can even my uncles and others visit her grave, when they are already visiting my grandparents. Must say that this feels very good. Now, we do not have to think anymore about this that she is alone.
For me, today I visited a memorial place and lighted a candle to my mother. It feels good that here is that possibility. My brother told that he will go and light a candle to mothers grave as well. Thoughts have been here and there, but it is okay to have little mixed feelings. I just hope that she has good there she is and does not have to fight with anymore with any sicknesses. I miss her and will always do it, but I am also happy that I have my brother and I still have place to go, when I visit Estonia and would like to spend time with my family. I am happy that I have them in my life still. Many says that it will be easier with time. I can say that it is wrong. It is not, but we understand much more with time what has passed, but it does never be easier. Or I am just an wrong person. Who knows. Anyway, I love my friends and family who have still been after that here for me.

Have a nice evening!
                                  Love,
                                            Ingrit

Two happy girls,

Once again it has been fantastic winter day here in Sweden. It has been a good day for me and also to my small cute 4-leged friend.

In lunch I had booked a fur cut for Sally. She is nice and cute with her teddy fur, but it is not so easy together with snow. So I took our small Sally to the city and she got a cut. Now she is like a small ball of freezing bones and skin :) I know, that it is not nice to laugh on her, but she looks so cute now. In home, she tries to be as close as possible, so that she could keep some warm. The other thing is to go to outside. We are not that popular at the moment in her mind. I want to go out with her or let Sally to go out alone, but in her opinion, we are idiots who want to see her to freeze :D It feels nice to see her now with short fur. Looks more like our Sally. Perhaps now I will get to keep up her with my tempo.

After I had got back Sally from the hairdresser and had lunch, I met up with one girl. I had seen on net that she had jacket from Peak Performance for sale. Lately I have got a teeth to bleed for that trademark. It started home, when my cousin talked about it, but I could never buy before, since I was very big person and their clothes are bit smaller from normal size. During a past 5 months, I have bought some clothes from Peak Performance. So, when I saw that jacket and saw the size, I thought first that no, I should not buy. It is too small for me, but I decided that, ok. Even that it does not fit me now, when it should be a good motivation for me to get my goal and when it will fit perfekt for me. I came home and decided to try it already today. I must say that I was very happy. It fitted me very well. I can even have a knitted sweatshirt under it. I must say, that all this have made my day.
This week has went so good so far. My husbands birthday present have came, I got a very good grade in Economy specializering and have had time to prioritize me a little bit more. I have had time to study, time for training and some other new trainingplans are made and in Saturday I can go to Borås to visit my dear good friend. What else I want. It feels that slowly the things have start to go as I would like and love. I have start to feel myself bit more as a human again. Now I just have to hope that winter will last a little bit more. I just love it. It is so beautiful outside. It gives a lot of energy. Now, it is time for family. Soon I will go to bed, because, when Saturday comes faster :P

Have a nice evening!
                                  Love,
                                            Ingrit

95 years since Peace Treaty of Tartu,

Today Estonia celebrates 95 years since Treaty of Tartu was signed between Estonia and Russia in 2nd February 1920, ending the War of Independence. Estonia was the first democratic country to sign an official agreement with the Bolshevik regime and it was a first time Estonia got it's independence from Russia.
The wish to end the War of Independence in Estonia was evident by the summer of 1919, but the government had to consider the countries of the Entente and its neighbors, who did not approve of peace talks with the Bolsheviks. The breakthrough was brought about by the failed attack of the White Russian North-western Army in autumn 1919. This affected the Estonian military-political situation of Estonia and changed the attitude of the Western countries. Peace talks in Tartu started on 5 December 1919. The Estonian delegation was headed by Jaan Poska, and the Russian by Leonid Krassin (later Adolf Joffe). The main obstacles were differences on the border question – the Bolsheviks demanded Setumaa and the eastern part of Virumaa – and increased Russian military pressure, in the hope of securing a better position at the talks. An armistice was achieved on 31 December 1919 and the final peace treaty was signed on 2 February 1920. In the treaty, Russia recognized Estonian independence; all areas settled by Estonians were accepted as part of Estonia (including Setumaa and Narva). Russia gave up its possessions in the Republic of Estonia, agreed to return the treasures evacuated from Estonia, and ceded 15 million gold roubles to Estonia. The two countries established diplomatic relations.
More about Peace Treaty of Tartu can be read in Wikisource, where also articles have been taken out. Also from Histrodamus, where can see the road to our Independence.
That independence lasted until 23 August 1939, when Molotov-Ribbentrop pact was signed under in Moscow and Estonia together with other countries was annexed by Soviet again.  Now, we are independent again and it feels good.  It is good to see, how much Estonia has gain and achieved with this independence and how much more the small country can achieve in the future. I am very proud to be an Estonian.

Have a nice day!
                            Love,
                                     Ingrit

So peaceful,

Today the weather outside in Norrahammar is so peaceful. In the night it have been snowing again and after I had cleaned some snow I took a long powerwalk with my small black friend. If someone loves winter as much as me, it is our little Sally. She just loves to keep her nose close to the ground and eat the snow. Here is some pictures from our walking trip.

I just love winter and it's pureness. All is so white and so peaceful. It is so innocent outside. Not surprising that I love winter.

Have a nice day!
                           Love,
                                    Ingrit

Word's of wisdom,

Thank you all, who you are in my life and make it wonderful! 

Have a nice evening!
                                   Love,
                                             Ingrit