Already 5 years,

As I have said before, in some day days are flying and other days they are goings so slowly as the snails. Any how, I have managed, that today it is exactly 5 years since I moved from Estonia to Sweden. Day before came Tommy with morning boat to Tallinn to get me. He and my brother helped to pack the car and in the evening, we took boat back towards to Sweden. A evening on boat, nice autumn evening and colors, a lot of different thoughts and feelings.
Now, 5 years after that day, my thought and feelings are much more riven. Of course this time has given me good times, fun times, but it as also given me a lot of sad and horrible times. Most of those times I just would like to forget. A lot of things have been happened during this 5 years. It also has given a lot of different life lessons, where some of the lessons has been very expensive and have affected just not only me, but also my husband and rest of the family quite a lot.
During this time here in Sweden I have seen so many nice places and nature. I have gain some really good friends, who I can trust and rely. That has helped me during this last year, when I have had really though times. Friends who supports me, even thought I have made mistakes or I say no to some questions. Seems that not all persons can do it. One thing I am happy, during that year, I have gain little bit more confidence and I am able to say No and stand more on my own opinion. I just not follow the flow anymore. For me that is a quite big step.
During this year, it has been happen also other good things for me. Members in our local Lions Club elected me one more year as the club president. The first Lions year as club president has been interesting and it gave me a lot more knowledge, confidence. I have got to know a lot of new wonderful persons. All this has been very positive for me. I have learn to know some more new persons, who has enriched my life with friendliness, carefulness and kindness. Something, what has been helped through hard times. It also have happened some more sad things. Some kind persons have left this world and have joined with other angels. The company is almost finished and finally that era is over. In so many ways I am happy for that. It has been made that I can feel myself much more calmed and hopefully soon bit more happy.
Finally I also got my shoulder operation. Now it is just to wait and see what the result will be. In my feelings, I just would like to see result today and right now, but I have to be patient and let it take all this time it needs to take. 
This year has been as it has been. As american mountain. I hope really that next year will be little bit more better and nicer for me, but we will see it next year.