Sunday, January 12, 2014

Beginning of New Year,


Soon half the January has passed and just only 11, 5 months is left until new year. Time has went fast in my opinion, but it is always like that, if there is much to do or you have good time. For me, it has been both.
As I told last time, when this is My year and I have started to work towards my own promise to me. Soon I will leave from the company, what I have owned together with other girl for over 3,5 years. For one time, I must start to think of myself. After the accident  my doctor told me to find other job, since I managed to damage my shoulder too seriously and to live with it and have some kind of decent life, when I have to do something else. One way, easy to say, but I also have understand that health must come for first time for me in first hand, since I hope I have lots of years still in front of me. To leave company, it was not easy decision, but in same time it was. Every decisions we make, have 2 sides and for me, I feel and think, that my decision was totally right. Should I regret that decision - No, why should I. My family and my friends is supporting me and there is always someone who is angry and disappointed over our decisions we make in life. After a week work, I also can see, that my decision is most right, since it makes hurt every day like hell, when I have work and I am not the one, who gives up easy with pain. As it is, we live only once and when I prefer it would be as good as it can be.
New year also have started with our annual party when the Christmas tree is "stripped" of decorations. It was very good party. We was quite many member with the spouses. Usually one part of family is member in Lions Club, but in our case, when both me and my husband are member in our local Lions Club. In our annual party all family is invited and we had also some guests. Some potential new members, who might will join with us, in our club and that feels good. We need a more members, but also more younger members, if we would like that our club should having also many good years in front of us, so that we could make a difference in peoples lives. Here I can be very sure, Lions makes difference not just only other persons lives, who will get help in somehow from through different Lions Clubs around the world, it makes also difference Lions clubs members lives.
Since I became a vice president in our local club, I have understand that it is not the members who have put hours in their lives to Lions, it is also partners, who does it. Yesterday in our party, I tried to show my appreciation towards to members and the ones, who is not yet our members, but might became. I feel, it is important to hold our relations we have, so that all should feel that, what they do, all this is appreciated in club. I had honor to give out one Melvin Jones Fellowship award and also one Progressive Melvin Jones Fellowship award. That is honor for me a new member in Lions, to show members that all their hard work is appreciated. It feels actually good. All and all, our annual party went very well. We had good music, good food, good company and a lot fun. Nothing else matters in those moments and for me, members of Lions Club Jönköping has a special place in my heart, since I was so warmly welcomed in Sweden, after I moved here.
So, as I can say, my year has started well. At least precisely as I have wanted. New chapter in my life has began and one way I must say it is thanks for the accident, since that has made me to realize, what is important in this life. Family, health, close friends, close people in life and when other things. I have understand at be angry, stressed  it is nothing what is important. Life is too short.
Have a nice day! 

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year,


I would like to wish for you all Happy New Year 2014! Now it has arrived. New year, New month and that feels actually quite good. For me, I just had to admit, was 2014 a waited year. For a while ago I had told, that this year, is my year.
Last year happened so many things, what was so negative for me and that had made me feel more down and less happy. It also have affected just not me, but also my husband and that has made me just more sad.
Good things from my last year has been, that I have visited my family in Estonia 2 times and got spend both Christmas and New Year together with my younger brother. I have spend time with friends and visited little bit around in Sweden and saw new places, where I have not been before.
Negative things from my previous year has been, that I could not spend my usual days after Christmas in Estonia, but then I also know, that they will be there also next year and I can visit them again. The negative happening in my life last year was also my car accident and that affected me in so many ways. Good thing for me from that was, that I realized how happy I am, that I am living and all this gave me good perspectives over my life and what I really want to do, how I really want to be.
To come in my age in bottom of the life has not been good feeling, specially when I have felt before economically safe. So, the accident was good to bring out all the small but important things, what I needed to know and to feel. Now, I know precisely what I want to do, what I need to do, so that I would never ever feel that way anymore. I do not want to feel more, that I am nothing worth and that I am useless. This year, all this will be change.  I will not want to feel anymore as I have felt since my car accident. After I was but words to it and made my first decisions, I felt good and relieved. I felt, that I am on right directions. Probably there will be persons, who are saying, that all I do is wrong or that I should think others as well, but my question is why?? When I already have felt how others take active choices, what I have to loose....??? Nothing anymore. I have found the bottom in the hole, now it is time to start to climb up again. This year I will think mainly to myself, but also to my husband, my family, my close friends and to Lions. Rest I will think, if I have time over for it. It is not anymore my priority. My priority this year is ME and my present and future and those people who has supported me last couple of months. A lot of clearness came to me after the accident and that is good. It opened my eyes and I needed it.
When last year I gave myself a new year resolutions, when this year I decided, I will not do it anymore. On the other hand, my year will come My year and that is most important. It means, no broken promises.
I would like to thank all the persons, who has supported me during my difficult times and made me feel better and less sad. The people, who has stayed with me during all this time. Thank you all so much for it. You are sun in my life.
About more, what will start to happen, you might read soon again. I will keep you informed about MY year. So far I just will enjoy the first day of the New Year and the following days.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!