I would like to wish for you all Happy New Year 2014! Now it has arrived. New year, New month and that feels actually quite good. For me, I just had to admit, was 2014 a waited year. For a while ago I had told, that this year, is my year.
Last year happened so many things, what was so negative for me and that had made me feel more down and less happy. It also have affected just not me, but also my husband and that has made me just more sad.
Good things from my last year has been, that I have visited my family in Estonia 2 times and got spend both Christmas and New Year together with my younger brother. I have spend time with friends and visited little bit around in Sweden and saw new places, where I have not been before.
Negative things from my previous year has been, that I could not spend my usual days after Christmas in Estonia, but then I also know, that they will be there also next year and I can visit them again. The negative happening in my life last year was also my car accident and that affected me in so many ways. Good thing for me from that was, that I realized how happy I am, that I am living and all this gave me good perspectives over my life and what I really want to do, how I really want to be.
To come in my age in bottom of the life has not been good feeling, specially when I have felt before economically safe. So, the accident was good to bring out all the small but important things, what I needed to know and to feel. Now, I know precisely what I want to do, what I need to do, so that I would never ever feel that way anymore. I do not want to feel more, that I am nothing worth and that I am useless. This year, all this will be change. I will not want to feel anymore as I have felt since my car accident. After I was but words to it and made my first decisions, I felt good and relieved. I felt, that I am on right directions. Probably there will be persons, who are saying, that all I do is wrong or that I should think others as well, but my question is why?? When I already have felt how others take active choices, what I have to loose....??? Nothing anymore. I have found the bottom in the hole, now it is time to start to climb up again. This year I will think mainly to myself, but also to my husband, my family, my close friends and to Lions. Rest I will think, if I have time over for it. It is not anymore my priority. My priority this year is ME and my present and future and those people who has supported me last couple of months. A lot of clearness came to me after the accident and that is good. It opened my eyes and I needed it.
When last year I gave myself a new year resolutions, when this year I decided, I will not do it anymore. On the other hand, my year will come My year and that is most important. It means, no broken promises.
I would like to thank all the persons, who has supported me during my difficult times and made me feel better and less sad. The people, who has stayed with me during all this time. Thank you all so much for it. You are sun in my life.
About more, what will start to happen, you might read soon again. I will keep you informed about MY year. So far I just will enjoy the first day of the New Year and the following days.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
