Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas,

Finally the Christmas time has arrived. Not so many days left in this year.
Christmas time is time for close friends and family. At least for us. Today we will go in afternoon to spend Christmas together with my father-in-law and to be countryside. Only 2 things I miss this Christmas - my own family and snow. Seems that we will have green/black/grey Christmas without the snow. Only bit frost and dark ice on the roads.
Take care of your closest ones! Enjoy your time with your families and friends! It is not the presents, what is most important, it is quality time you spend with your closest one, what is most important. So many people feeling about stress for presents and amount of presents as well the cost, but so many forgets, what is important with Christmas. Hopefully you have been nice during a year and you will get a visit from Santa Claus :)
I would like to wish you all Merry Christmas! Enjoy your time and if you have, even snow :)
Love,
           Ingrit

New Embdoidery Card,

I think that there can't be never enough for me from nice and beautiful embroidery patterns :) I supposed to get it on Saturday, but again I missed the time and came to the shop half an hour after it was closed. In some way I always manage it with this shop and just on Saturdays. Perhaps, that other shops are opened until 15:00 and this particular shop is closing 13:00 :) Hopefully there comes a day I learn those times, but seems, that this day i long from me.

I am so happy, that I got that card home.  I loved this fine Christmas patterns what this card had. Last year I bought Christmas patterns from Husqvarna Viking and this year came even Pfaff out with ones. I felt like I am in heaven. On Wednesday I will plan to sit all day in my small hobby room. I have one day this week for me and it will go to handwork. Something else and interesting to do and also my way to have a peaceful moment and calm my stress down. 

Here comes an updated list with patterns:

Husqvarna Viking patterns:

Card 280 Organic Creations
Card 279 Felted Nature
Card 270 Vintage Postcard
Card 269 With all my Heart
Card 267 Appliqué Cutwork
Card 264 Layered Quilting with Appliqué
Card 263 Line Art Flowers 
Card 257 3D Flowers
Card 255 Small Square Hoop Embroideries
Card 253 Elegant Cases
Card 252 Yarn Art
Card 247 Most Popular Lace
Card 245 Decorative Edge Work
Card 241 Mega Endless Embroideries 
Card 239 Cutwork Technique II
Card 237 Quilting for the Holiday
Card 236 Hand look Vintage Letters
Card 231 Textured Quilting II
Card 229 Majestic Seasons
Card 227 Christmas Creations
Card 222 Cross Stitch Harmony
Card 219 Romantic Cutwork
Card 217 Precious Crochet
Card 215 Hoop! Sew! Go! 
Card 214 Towel Magic 
Card 211 Thread Velvet & Yarn
Card 208 Endless Romantic Cotton Lace
Card 203 Special Techniques Butterflies  
Card 202 Cutwork Finesse
Card 200 In Full Bloom
Card 197 Embellish with Yarn
Card 193 Wing Needle Embroidery
Card 186 Mega Madeira Borders
Card 182 Felting Art Embroidery
Card 180 Mega Blossom
Card 178 Mega Decór
Card 163 Dimensional Decorations
Card 162 Blooming Flower 
Card 153 Colors of Autumn 
Card 144 Mega Swirls
Card 143 Mega Floral Elegance
Card 139 Mega Flowers
Card 138 Sparklers
Card 137 Swedish Santas 
Card 131 Mega Elegance
Card 128 Flowers and Fashions
Card 119 Flowers and Frames 2
Card 117 Mega Borders
Card 108 Designer Celebrity Collection
Card 91 Endless Insertions and Thread Work
Card 78 Kitchen & Garden II
Card 75 Cross Stitch Border
Card 74 Fuzzy Wuzzy Bears
Card 68 Beautiful Baltimore
Card 65 Delicate and Dainity
Card 64 Italian Romance
Card 63 French Café
Card 58 Trendy Textures
Card 53 Christmas Lace I
Card 50 Kitchen Harvest
Card 47 Butterflies
Card 46 Candlewicking
Card 45 Fantasy Flowers
Card 34 Countryside
Card 17 Roses

Pfaff patterns:

Card 478 Sheer Christmas
Card 477 Holiday Line Art
Card 452 Handbags and More
Card 446 Lettering . Including Thread Velvet
Card 439 Towel Techniques
Card 436 Grand Dream Yarn Quilting Special Techniques
Card 429 Elegant Pop-Up Flowers
Card 424 Endless vintage cotton lace

Inspira patterns:

Towel Time!
Kitchen Art
Endless Elements
Flower Fun
Elegant Bottles
Easter Friends
Fantasy Flowers
Playtime
Mega Florals
Christmas Eve
Cross stitch borders
Baltimore in Bloom
My Sewing Room 

As usually. All patterns can be ordered in different colors and products. Just feel free to contact me on my mail or in facebook. Some part of handwork can be seen on Facebook on my handcraft page. 

Have a nice evening,
                                Love,
                                         Ingrit

Just a little bit more,

Today morning I saw, that I have only 2 more kilos left and I am finally in normal weight and BMI according all the calculations. I can't believe that I am on my way to be smaller me after so many years. I could see, that last time I was in normal weight around 26 - 27 years ago. That has been long time for me to fight with my weight. Long and lonely fight. Have been judged a lot during my short life, have missed much in life, because it has made me feel as prisoner in my own mind and body and so much more. Many people I have learned to know under years are quite shallow. Under your eyes, they are one and behind you, it is totally different attitude. In the same time, i must say that I have learned to know some wonderful persons, who are Friends with big F. For those persons I am very happy over to have them in my life and that I have had possibility to learn to know them.

So, 2 more kilos and I have arrived my part milestone. To go my goal, I have still around 15 kilos left. After that I feel I have managed with the one part of hard work. After to come to the end of milestone, it is to keep it. Another hard work, but I hope that I manage it. I feel, that have I manage it so far, when I should manage also this. Time will show, but I am optimistic about all this.
Now, I will see, that will evening bring to me.
Have a nice evening,
                                  Love,
                                           Ingrit

My first bra,

Another day is coming to its end and soon it is time for me to hug my pillow. Today was a last day for my sewing and inspiration weekend in Jönköping. For me, it was time to learn how to sew my own bra. It was all day course and I do not regret that I changed my previous booked course for that course. It was fantastic course. The course leader was very good. She had prepared to us all a personal sewing kit with different materials and colors.
To sew my own bra, was good exercise to learn to sew in stretch material as well as lace. For me it was bit scary, since I have not been a good friend with any stretch material, but I must admit, it went very well. I am so happy with the end result. Of course, I did make some mistakes,  but it is totally normal, since how else we learn to sew and for the first time, the result for me was perfect. It made me to decide, that from now on, I start to sew my own bras. No more need to buy, since then I can have personal bra, what anyone else does not have. Much more personal. It took it's time, but it was not very hard one.
For this year, this interesting weekend is over. That is bit sad. I really hope, that next year will it be again. I know, that I would be there, since it was so interesting, it was fun and I learned quite a much. But that was not the only reason. I also could meet with my friends and get some more inspiration. That is something what have generated several interesting ideas for some projects :) Hopefully soon I can do so much that I can feel more happy. Have missed my handwork but my shoulder makes that I can't still do as much as I want. Tomorrow I will go look after some things and then I will see what the result will be :P
Now it is time to look a bit TV and soon it is time to hug my pillow. Tomorrow I will update bit more my blog as well my facebook page for handcraft.
Have a nice evening,
                                  Love,
                                            Ingrit

Me and my crazy hobby,

Today was another day in Bäckadal gymnasium for my handcraft weekend. I must admit, that I love to be there and to do, what we have done. I love handwork and I feel that I can hide myself from my worries and all the hard times. It is one thing what is very good for my soul.
Today I decided to learn more to know my wonderful Smarty :D I must say, I am not surprised that she got that name, since it seems that it is perfect name for my sewing machine since she is still smarten than me, but hopefully I will learn more to know my machine, than I did before.
Today, as yesterday I came home with a new embroidery card. I loved yesterday what we learned and that was the reason, why I bought one more embroidery card in felting technique. Tomorrow is last day for course and after that my Smarty will be back at home and I can hide myself behind it.

Here comes a new updated embroidery pattern list:

Husqvarna Viking patterns:

Card 280 Organic Creations
Card 279 Felted Nature
Card 270 Vintage Postcard
Card 269 With all my Heart
Card 267 Appliqué Cutwork
Card 264 Layered Quilting with Appliqué
Card 263 Line Art Flowers 
Card 257 3D Flowers
Card 255 Small Square Hoop Embroideries
Card 253 Elegant Cases
Card 252 Yarn Art
Card 247 Most Popular Lace
Card 245 Decorative Edge Work
Card 241 Mega Endless Embroideries 
Card 239 Cutwork Technique II
Card 237 Quilting for the Holiday 
Card 236 Hand look Vintage Letters
Card 231 Textured Quilting II 
Card 229 Majestic Seasons
Card 227 Christmas Creations
Card 222 Cross Stitch Harmony 
Card 219 Romantic Cutwork
Card 217 Precious Crochet
Card 215 Hoop! Sew! Go! 
Card 214 Towel Magic 
Card 211 Thread Velvet & Yarn
Card 208 Endless Romantic Cotton Lace
Card 203 Special Techniques Butterflies  
Card 202 Cutwork Finesse
Card 200 In Full Bloom
Card 197 Embellish with Yarn
Card 193 Wing Needle Embroidery
Card 186 Mega Madeira Borders
Card 182 Felting Art Embroidery
Card 180 Mega Blossom
Card 178 Mega Decór  
Card 163 Dimensional Decorations
Card 162 Blooming Flower 
Card 153 Colors of Autumn 
Card 144 Mega Swirls
Card 143 Mega Floral Elegance
Card 139 Mega Flowers
Card 138 Sparklers
Card 137 Swedish Santas 
Card 131 Mega Elegance
Card 128 Flowers and Fashions
Card 119 Flowers and Frames 2
Card 117 Mega Borders 
Card 108 Designer Celebrity Collection
Card 91 Endless Insertions and Thread Work
Card 78 Kitchen & Garden II
Card 75 Cross Stitch Border
Card 74 Fuzzy Wuzzy Bears
Card 68 Beautiful Baltimore
Card 65 Delicate and Dainity
Card 64 Italian Romance
Card 63 French Café
Card 58 Trendy Textures
Card 53 Christmas Lace I
Card 50 Kitchen Harvest
Card 47 Butterflies
Card 46 Candlewicking
Card 45 Fantasy Flowers
Card 34 Countryside
Card 17 Roses

Pfaff patterns:

Card 452 Handbags and More
Card 446 Lettering . Including Thread Velvet
Card 439 Towel Techniques
Card 436 Grand Dream Yarn Quilting Special Techniques
Card 429 Elegant Pop-Up Flowers
Card 424 Endless vintage cotton lace

Inspira patterns:

Towel Time!
Kitchen Art
Endless Elements
Flower Fun
Elegant Bottles
Easter Friends
Fantasy Flowers
Playtime
Mega Florals
Christmas Eve
Cross stitch borders
Baltimore in Bloom
My Sewing Room 

More pictures and things about my weekend will come on my facebook handcraft page and little bit more also here in my blog. I will try to update it latest on Monday. 

Now, it is time for me to see my Saturday evenings series Downton Abbey and after that it is time to go to sleep, so that I can be wake tomorrow and enjoy my day in Bäckadal for a last day in this year.

Have a nice evening,
                                   Love,
                                             Ingrit

New embroidery card,

Today I started one very interesting weekend for me. A Sewing and Inspirational weekend. It is a third time VSM group in Sweden has that weekend and it is 3rd time for me to take part of it. For the first time I can be all weekend.
Today I also bought a new embroidery card to me. I can say, that I am happy :P So much interesting what can be make now :) I already have one project on my mind and hopefully soon I also can show the result. Depends how much my shoulder lets me to do something. 

So, here is updated list:

Husqvarna Viking patterns:

Card 279 Felted Nature
Card 270 Vintage Postcard
Card 269 With all my Heart
Card 267 Appliqué Cutwork
Card 264 Layered Quilting with Appliqué
Card 263 Line Art Flowers 
Card 257 3D Flowers
Card 255 Small Square Hoop Embroideries
Card 253 Elegant Cases
Card 252 Yarn Art
Card 247 Most Popular Lace
Card 245 Decorative Edge Work
Card 241 Mega Endless Embroideries 
Card 239 Cutwork Technique II
Card 237 Quilting for the Holiday 
Card 236 Hand look Vintage Letters
Card 231 Textured Quilting II 
Card 229 Majestic Seasons
Card 227 Christmas Creations
Card 222 Cross Stitch Harmony 
Card 219 Romantic Cutwork
Card 217 Precious Crochet
Card 215 Hoop! Sew! Go! 
Card 214 Towel Magic 
Card 211 Thread Velvet & Yarn
Card 208 Endless Romantic Cotton Lace
Card 203 Special Techniques Butterflies  
Card 202 Cutwork Finesse
Card 200 In Full Bloom
Card 197 Embellish with Yarn
Card 193 Wing Needle Embroidery
Card 186 Mega Madeira Borders
Card 182 Felting Art Embroidery
Card 180 Mega Blossom
Card 178 Mega Decór  
Card 163 Dimensional Decorations
Card 162 Blooming Flower 
Card 153 Colors of Autumn 
Card 144 Mega Swirls
Card 143 Mega Floral Elegance
Card 139 Mega Flowers
Card 138 Sparklers
Card 137 Swedish Santas 
Card 131 Mega Elegance
Card 128 Flowers and Fashions
Card 119 Flowers and Frames 2
Card 117 Mega Borders 
Card 108 Designer Celebrity Collection
Card 91 Endless Insertions and Thread Work
Card 78 Kitchen & Garden II
Card 75 Cross Stitch Border
Card 74 Fuzzy Wuzzy Bears
Card 68 Beautiful Baltimore
Card 65 Delicate and Dainity
Card 64 Italian Romance
Card 63 French Café
Card 58 Trendy Textures
Card 53 Christmas Lace I
Card 50 Kitchen Harvest
Card 47 Butterflies
Card 46 Candlewicking
Card 45 Fantasy Flowers
Card 34 Countryside
Card 17 Roses

Pfaff patterns:

Card 452 Handbags and More
Card 446 Lettering . Including Thread Velvet
Card 439 Towel Techniques
Card 436 Grand Dream Yarn Quilting Special Techniques
Card 429 Elegant Pop-Up Flowers
Card 424 Endless vintage cotton lace

Inspira patterns:

Towel Time!
Kitchen Art
Endless Elements
Flower Fun
Elegant Bottles
Easter Friends
Fantasy Flowers
Playtime
Mega Florals
Christmas Eve
Cross stitch borders
Baltimore in Bloom
My Sewing Room 

More pictures and things about my weekend will come on my facebook handcraft page and little bit more also here in my blog, but most in facebook, since it is easier. 

Now, it is time for me to go to sleep, so that I can be wake tomorrow.

Have a nice evening,
                                   Love,
                                             Ingrit

All Saints' Day

Today is again All Saints' Day and that has been celebrated in so many places in Sweden as well in other countries. Including in Estonia.
As it is usual, people visiting the graves and light a candle to the closest ones. Even I was in churchyard today and we lighted candle to our beloved ones, who have left us and went to the other side of the world. I think that it is nice that people can visit churchyards even if they don't have their relatives in particular churchyard, since they have memorial place in most churchyards and everyone can go and visit them.
This year I had two more persons to light a candle for. The latest person left us in October and we was his funeral service last Friday.  A nice ceremony with a lot of emotions. Sometimes it feels that life is unfair, but hopefully he got his inner peace now. That he looks down to us and laughs.
That is also a time to think about others who have left us. For me, I miss my mother to talk with. Sometimes I feel so sad, that I can't talk with her, but with 10 years it has been bit easier to take thoughts on her but that does not mean, that I do not miss her as much as I have done it before. At least I am happy that I could light a candle for her in memorial place and just think of her together with others. Now she is resting at least together with my grandmother and grandfather. My brother visited mums grave and lighted a candle for her. Hopefully soon I can do that. Time will show it.
Now, I will go and enjoy the evening with candles at home.
Have a nice evening,
                                   Love,
                                              Ingrit

Word's of wisdom,

Those words are totally right and it is exactly like that. At least I am happy over one thing and that is, I do not afraid anymore to stay for me. I do not follow the flow anymore and I believe that this is a good and healthy sign just for me since before I did not concentrate on me, I did as everyone expected from me. I said yes to all what others wanted and did not say anymore no. Now, those times are over. I am very happy over that. Finally I do something what is good for me. Not many persons like it, but it is time to start to finish to think, what others are wanting.

There will be always someone who does not like that. In Estonia we say, As village to the dog, so is the dog to the village. Now it is my time to be to those persons as they has been towards to me. But mostly I am still as I am - kind, warmhearted, caring and friendly persons, just some persons has stepped my tale way too long time. Before I accepted it and let people to do it, now all this is time is over.
Love,
         Ingrit

Happy girl on her rocky road,

Today I am bit happy girl on my rocky road. Today I founded a small friend, who finally have been started to show me a friendly numbers. Must admit only, that I still hate the number, but I am working on it, that I will sooner or later will like the number my weight will show to me.
Still I am also feeling happy over it, since it is smaller than I ever have been. I can finally go and buy a clothes from ordinary shops. This is something I am not so much to used to do. Feeling, what it gives is amazing and it makes me feel good, but still in the same time very strange. No more need to visit department for big size clothes even thought i am going there automatically.
Now, I am going to find my pillow. Happy girl on her rocky road need a beauty sleep :D
Have a nice evening,
                                  Ingrit

Already 5 years,

As I have said before, in some day days are flying and other days they are goings so slowly as the snails. Any how, I have managed, that today it is exactly 5 years since I moved from Estonia to Sweden. Day before came Tommy with morning boat to Tallinn to get me. He and my brother helped to pack the car and in the evening, we took boat back towards to Sweden. A evening on boat, nice autumn evening and colors, a lot of different thoughts and feelings.
Now, 5 years after that day, my thought and feelings are much more riven. Of course this time has given me good times, fun times, but it as also given me a lot of sad and horrible times. Most of those times I just would like to forget. A lot of things have been happened during this 5 years. It also has given a lot of different life lessons, where some of the lessons has been very expensive and have affected just not only me, but also my husband and rest of the family quite a lot.
During this time here in Sweden I have seen so many nice places and nature. I have gain some really good friends, who I can trust and rely. That has helped me during this last year, when I have had really though times. Friends who supports me, even thought I have made mistakes or I say no to some questions. Seems that not all persons can do it. One thing I am happy, during that year, I have gain little bit more confidence and I am able to say No and stand more on my own opinion. I just not follow the flow anymore. For me that is a quite big step.
During this year, it has been happen also other good things for me. Members in our local Lions Club elected me one more year as the club president. The first Lions year as club president has been interesting and it gave me a lot more knowledge, confidence. I have got to know a lot of new wonderful persons. All this has been very positive for me. I have learn to know some more new persons, who has enriched my life with friendliness, carefulness and kindness. Something, what has been helped through hard times. It also have happened some more sad things. Some kind persons have left this world and have joined with other angels. The company is almost finished and finally that era is over. In so many ways I am happy for that. It has been made that I can feel myself much more calmed and hopefully soon bit more happy.
Finally I also got my shoulder operation. Now it is just to wait and see what the result will be. In my feelings, I just would like to see result today and right now, but I have to be patient and let it take all this time it needs to take. 
This year has been as it has been. As american mountain. I hope really that next year will be little bit more better and nicer for me, but we will see it next year.

Hello autumn,

Today starts officially autumn and we can say good bye to summer. Yesterdays weather was quite right beginning for autumn - cold, windy and rainy. Today is totally different day from yesterday. It is bit chilly and sun is shining and we can see this wonderful autumn colors. The minus with autumn is, that we never don't know what we can wait from the day or week. It is also time for dark evenings and mornings and when it is raining and it is cloudy, when it is more darker.
One reason why I like autumn is all the beautiful colors, but I do not like rain, cold and mud. That is big reason why I love winter, when the cold is real, snow makes evenings and nights much more lighter and what is main reason - No mud, just nice white landscape.
Have a nice beginning of autumn and hopefully winter arrives soon.

Gluten and lactose free apple cake,

For some weeks ago, we had guests our home and I was need to make something for the coffee. Since I have got problems with gluten, the cake was have to be gluten free and also lactose free, since that allergy I have had since one year after moving to Sweden. Quite strange, but I am happy that there is so many possibilities to get good food what is free of gluten and lactose.

Here is recipe for my apple cake  what  is free of lactose and gluten but also what tastes very good in my opinion. Recipe for the bottom I got from my friend, who could help me in that question. I am happy that I have someone to turn in those kind of questions and also discus about that kind of food.

Ingredients:

Bottom: 
120 gr cold lactose free butter
120 gr rice flower
130 gr almond flower
0,75 teaspoon salt
1 large egg

Filling: 
7  medium apples (little bit sour)
3 egg
300 gr cottage cheese
1 dl or less sugar
3 teaspoon cinnamon
2 teaspoon cardamom

Mix all ingredients for bottom together and spread it on a baking form. I used a silicon baking form and  it did not needed to use any butter or something to bake, but if you are using glass or ceramic baking form, when you need first grease the form and when spread dough out on it.
Peel and take out seeds  from apples and chop them.  Mix chopped apples with cinnamon, cardamom and sugar. Fill the cake bottom with apples. Mix together egg and cottage cheese. Pour over the apples. Bake in 180 degrees for 45-55 minutes.

Serve together with vanilla souse or vanilla ice cream.

I can say that it tasted good. Not much difference that instead usual wheat flour I had used almond and rice flour. Taste was still same as cake has only perhaps little bit smoother taste. Hard to explain :)

Bon Appetit!
                       Love,
                                Ingrit

Election day,

Today everyone who can vote have opportunity to vote in Sweden. It is an big election day as we can say. All in one day. We can vote for Government, Provincial Government and for Municipality. I could not vote for the Government, but other 2 places I could vote since I am still proud Estonian citizen and I have plan to keep it that way.
Since end of summer there has been a lot of talk about politics, what is good and what is bad. We can hear from people their thoughts and politicians throw dirt against each other.
We live in democratic world and strange is that people who could go and vote, when there is quite big  percentage of persons who does not do it even thought they have right and possibilities. In some places in the world, people would like to go to vote and they cannot. That makes sad, that those who can, just won't do it, but still have their opinion about what is right or wrong.
Now I can hope that alliance will win since I believe the 4 years  what I have seen what they have done, they have done good work. Many has said that way and it has also proved.
Now we just have to see what will happen with this election.

Have a nice evening,
                                  Love,
                                             Ingrit

25 years from the the Baltic Way,

Today celebrates Estonia, Latvia and Lithuania 25 years from the Baltic Way, when around 2 million persons standing hand in hand in a line 600 km long and had mass demonstration towards it's own freedom and independence from Russia. In that time I was only 10 years old, but still remember it. A lot of people from my home town went to next town, to be part of the chain. Together with that kind of demonstration we also had singing revolution and first time our flag was out again since 1939. All this maybe has made me feel that I am proud Estonian in my heart even thought I live and have live 1/3 years from my life abroad. That was proof that demonstrations can be also peaceful. Not like today we hear from the news.
More can be read about Baltic Way: http://baltikett.ajaloomuuseum.ee/eng/index.html 
It shows how fast time just flies. So many years from all that. 3 days ago celebrated Estonia 23 years since they gained re-independence.

Hello 70'es,

Today is a happy day for me. Finally I have got 7 as my first number on my weight. I can't believe it. Just before I decided to step on the scale I had talked with my family in Estonia and I had told that I am bit over 80. I just can't say how happy I am. My husband just laughed over me, when I made my happy dance :D That little or much, depends how to take, I was really in 6th or 7th grade.
My road to here, has not been easy. It has been very long and very hard but I have had support from home in Estonia and my family and close friends here in Sweden. Without them, I believe that I could have not get so far. I love my husband and family and friends for that support. Thank you, that you have been here for me.
Me happy. Little me is very, very happy :P Just bit over 20 kg to go :P To my own goal.
Have a nice evening,
                                 Love,
                                            Ingrit

I have runned again,

Today is a little bit big day for me. Some people would say, what is new on it, or it is nothing, it is not a big distance and so on and on. For me, it is a big day. For me to run almost 1 km without any break or walking, it is big step on my road.
When I came in and started to think, when was a last time, when I could run that kind of trip before without any break or walking, when I could consider, that it must have been, when I was 10-11 years old. So at least more than 20 years ago. Before the longest distance I could run was around 200 m and after that I had to take a stop or walk slowly, for take a pulse down, so when I could run today this distance without any break, I felt little bit proud of myself.
I also have now inaugurated my new shoes I bought in Örebro, when me and my husband had our vacation trip in Sweden 2 weeks ago. I must admit, I could never had dream that I would run one day again and I would really enjoy it as I did it today. I think that even my small black 4-leged friend was surprised, since she just run with me all the way. She even forgot to do her needs. First after we came home, she did the things, why we was out in a first place. Thihi :D
It was good feeling and I know that it was just a beginning for me. Next time for my running trip is not far anymore. It gave me just so much energy and good feelings. I am very happy over me and how far I have come on my road. Not an easy road, but it is my road. Now I am one more step closer towards my goal for much more smaller me.
Love,
          Ingrit

One year,

Today it is exactly one year since that day, what changed so much for me in my life. I can't say that it was an good change, but change what showed me later who are wrong people in my life.
Exactly a year ago, I was on my way home from Jönköping, when I lost the control over my car and drove into another cars trailer. In one way very lucky accident and another way very unlucky accident. An lucky accident because if the car from opposite side of road had drove slower, I would had contact exactly with drivers door and I might have damaged him, so that i hit trailer, it made that accident an lucky one. On the other side that accident was very unlucky for me, since I did not manage to get out of it with no damages. In that accident had inevitable damages for me. I damaged my shoulder and unfortunately very seriously. No luck on my side that day. A year after, I still have problems with the shoulder and still taking every day strong painkillers. Most sad is, that there seems to be some people, who does not believe that pains are there, since damage is inside and not outside. Had I lost arm or leg or broke something visible, when perhaps some skeptics would had believed.
This accident was also the beginning of so many changes in my life. It changed my working abilities, it changed first people in my life. It showed, who is shallow persons and who are real.
Today, a year later since the beginning of changes, it has been time to learn, time to feel and most definitely time  to be patient. Lessons for how to be more patient have been most hardest, since I am not the patient person. To be patient and to give the time - two things or more likely words, what I just do not to want to hear anymore. Have a wait a half a year the shoulder operation, since first they wanted to see that I would get some movement to shoulder back and how much pain it will do, when it was planned into June and later I got to know that I have to wait until the vacation times is over. Will see how long time I have to wait. At least this is not the experience and feelings I would like even my enemies to feel, or perhaps some. Might be that after that, they would understand that all this is not a joke, that this is true and feelings and pains are true.
It was just how and where I had my thoughts today. Thoughts, feelings, imaginations, and still I am back in point there I have to be patient and just give the time. One year since I had to say goodbye to my blue purse and get to used to with the new black one. Life and it's adjustments. I am just happy that I am alive and the accident was an lucky unlucky one. Beginning of my own adjustments what I was need really perhaps. Or maybe not, we never get to know.
Sleep well,
                  Love,
                              Ingrit

My road so far,

Now it has been a while, when I have been on my road to get smalle me. It is not an easy road as many people thinking. It takes time and it takes patient. The last thing is, what I do not have so much, since I want everything to happen in a right away. Especially now with me loosing a weight.
From my start in this year, I have lost 44,1 kg and it is a quite a lot I feel and my brain says, but when I was in Estonia last time with my family, when my aunt pointed me out that from my maximum weight I have lost more than I am today.  I have lost totally almost 89 kg. It is unbelievable,  that I have lost a whole person and even more.
This road has been hard and long and it has been just the beginning. Long work is still ahead and much need to be done. One thing I feel what is fun, is to go to shop and buy a new clothes. If before, I just could go selected shops who had clothes for big size, when today I can go any shop I want. Yesterday I visited HM for example and made a found. That nice pink short dress. I do not have to choose anymore the biggest clothes what is in shop. I can choose what ever I want, since I fit in to M and it is very comfortable still. I can say, that I am very happy over it. I never have had that feeling before, since smallest I could fit in was 3xl and so. I had only couple of shops to go and buy clothes, and today I have every shop to go and I can buy what I want and I feel like. But as I said before, it is just beginning. I have still a long road ahead.

When I look the picture up and looking the fist one, what has made in 2012, middle one has been made 2013 and the last one in my new pink dress was made yesterday, when I hope in my heart, that I never will end up as the 2 first pictures of me. It feels like it is totally different person in the last picture and I like little that person. I dare more to go out to have a short dress on me even thought it is totally out of my comfort zone and I had to check that dress is sitting as it has to be, but I felt as a woman with that pink dress today in the city. A feeling, what I do not have felt so often before.
I can say one thing. At least I do not afraid mirror anymore so much as I did before. We will see how it goes. It is still long road ahead.

Love,
          Ingrit

Word's of wisdom,

 

So true can some words to be. It is how I have felt during last year and I am very thankful for those persons, who are still keeping me in their life, but I am also thankful for those who does not do it. It has shown how false persons they are and I am happy that they are not anymore in my life.

Good night and sleep well,

                                           Love,

                                                     Ingrit

Viking ship Sigrid Storråda,

In Saturday me and my husband together with two of our friends had opportunity to sale with viking ship Sigrid Storråda. We left from harbor in Läckö around 12 and was back again after 2,5 hours.
It was amazing and interesting trip. We had opportunity to see Läckö castle in other sides, what we could not have seen before. We also saw beautiful landscape in Sweden and just enjoyed good time. We got bit historical background how the ship was came around almost 20 years ago and we also got self opportunity to paddle that big ship. After that it it was not anymore surprising that in the viking time, it took bit time to sale with those boats. All small details was needed to be in place and everyone had to been in the same tempo, since the short time we could try to paddle with 18 persons in a time, it felt that ship did not go much further. It felt like all took quite a long time. But it was fun to try it. For our surprise, the waves from viking ship was not so big. What affected more that ship was waves from other small boats and scooters.
After our adventure in Värnen, we went to Spiken, so that we could see does we can find something for the evening. No luck there, we went further to Lidköping and bought wish in there, what we barbecued later in the evening. I had never had haddock before and I can say that it tasted really good. I made small mistake with it, but next time I will know better :) We learn from our mistakes or how?
It was a wonderful day with both friends and family. Thank you for a good time!

Love,
          Ingrit

Family time,

I love this Summer. Not for it is warm, because there I still can say, that I love winter, but because I have had possibility to spend 3,5 weeks with them. It is the longest time with them, since I moved back to Sweden. Time, what I really enjoyed and could say quality time. Family time was really needed for me this year after all what has been happened during this year period in my life. Even the thought, that I was so close to possibility that I will never see them anymore, made me enjoy more time with them.
This summer it was really family time with my aunt's family. Time flied so fast, that I had not much possibility to see others. Except my younger brother. It was really good to see him also and spend a whole weekend with them. Just before they left back to their home, we had a good time with grilling and talking.
During my visit in Estonia, I could also see some old places I have been and seen, but also some new ones. All the places I can recommend to visit since it is worth it. Nature in Estonia is beautiful and also places it self what should be experienced. It has been amazing time to see all that beauty. We also visited some eating places and had our fun moments.
Lots of laugh while I was in Estonia and lots of tears from my side when it was time to leave again. It is always hard to go away from family who has been all the time here for me and supported me during all my difficulties. Memories will help through until I will see my family again. Hopefully then I even have time to see my friends again.
Time in Estonia was really well needed. I could recharge my batteries, think about other things and nice things and spend time with the ones who has always been here for me. It was really sad, that I could not meet my friends and other family members, but I am sure that there will be more times I can come to Estonia. If not before, when again in Christmas time. At least that is my plan. It has been a year between the times, when I saw last time my family and I feel self that it is very long time. It was good that I saw my younger brother in Christmas and New year.  Family is all I need around me, since I have learned others comes and goes, only the ones, who really wants to stay in your life, is doing it, but family is always in our lives. I am happy to have my family and to have some special people in my life in here in Sweden as well in Estonia.

Word's of wisdom,

 

Good night and sleep well,

                                           Love,

                                                     Ingrit

Word's of wisdom,

 

Good night and sleep well,

                                           Love,

                                                     Ingrit

Sponge cake,

It is good to be back at home with my family here in Estonia. Since I love to bake and home in Sweden, we have not very often visitors, whom I could bake. Here, family likes it when I am baking and eats it up.
Today I made one juicy sponge cake.  Here comes recipe.

Ingredients:

4 egg
4 dl. caster sugar
5 dl. wheat flour
2 teasp. baking powder
250 gr. butter
2 lemon
0,5 dl. water

Whip up eggs and caster sugar to strong foam. Mix flour with baking powder and add it to egg foam. Mix it all together. Melt butter around 90 seconds in microwave oven and  mix all together. Grate the zest of lemons and add to the dough as well as lemon juice from both lemons and mix it last time.
Put the dough in greased mold and in to the oven in 175 degrees for at least for 40 minutes or more. Deppends on mold and amount of dough.
Serve it with cold ice-cream, sorbet or just how you want. I can say that my family liked it and it tasted good.
Bon Appetit!
                      Love,
                                Ingrit