Hello February. This years first month has been left behind and new month has arrived. Soon is spring, summer, autumn and then again winter and Christmas. The same is with doors - one is closing and other one will be opened.
Yesterday I closed one door and opened another door. After almost 4 years, was time for me to leave the company I have been part since beginning. It felt right decision after what have been happened. I did take to consideration, what my doctor had pointed me out for several times after my car accident in august and left my work. How does it feel - I must admit, that feels like a big relief has became over. It has brought some good times, but also quite many hard and tough times. It has made, that if I take all and all under to consideration, when I regret all this quite much. In the same time, we can't turn back in clock even if we would want it, so I take it as the lesson. Only thought as a hard and expensive lesson in all ways. So, I am quite happy, that this chapter is finished in my life. Will I miss something - yes of course. I will come miss some of the costumers. It was always good to go, when you knew that you was waited. Some elderly costumers liked that we came to them and took a short moment to talk with them, before we left them and went to other costumers. It was the good moments. I will miss the courses and interesting meetings I have attend under the years, I have been part of the company. One thing I am sure - I will not miss the tough times what has been and what will still come.
Today I opened new door for my future. I feel more relieved and hopefully soon even more happier. I hope to feel more cheerful. One thing I am very sure - I am one step closer to fill my this years goal, what I have decided last year in Christmas. As I decided then - this is my year. All steps what I will make this year, will have significant importance for my future years.
It will be interesting to see, what the future will bring. I am sure in one thing - It will be as I want it to be. It is still me, who has chance to change it and make it better. It is still me, who will live my own life and I do not have to let others to say, how I should live it.
My next step will be to start to read again and take my exams and do, what I love to do - be part of our local Lions Club and try to take hand of my handwork as much as my shoulder will let me to make it. Hopefully now, after I have left physical work behind, my shoulder will get a little better and I would not need so much strong painkillers as I have taken for last month. Now I just have to let time to show me, how it all will end up. I am very thankful over my family and my close friends, who is supporting me and giving me advice and just are by my side. I would have been lost without them, since they are the ones I can turn to, when I feel like I need to talk with someone or when I need advice. I am very thankful that they are supporting me on this. I believe, that in the end, all just will be fine.
