Last night in Tallinn and in Estonia,

So, now is time for me, to write last time from Tallinn to my web diary. Tomorrow evening I will sail over The Baltic Sea to Sweden. Tomorrow I will leave my homeland and will go and take new challenges in my life.
Many of my friends and relatives have been asked, how do I feel and how I have planned spend my last night at Tallinn or in Estonia. Should I spend it quietly or should I spend it with big party, alcohol and who knows, perhaps with a hangover tomorrow morning :D Answer is simple, I try to take all what I can from my last day.
In the morning I was try to sleep bit longer, but I think that all excitement and emotions, I did not succeed on that very well. In the midday, I had agreement with one of my long time friend, that we will have lunch together. We did, but I don't know, how I will wait Christmas, since we ate Rudolf :D But it had aftertaste for skin :D Still I must admit, it tasted interesting, so this Christmas Rudolf does not drive with Santa Claus :D
After I met with my other friend and we went to see the new shopping mall, what was opened for people today morning. It was mistake :D Felt like all Tallinn was there since it was totally crowded, but still I manage to spend a little money there and buy 2 expansions for one table game and one game what can play when you travel. It is good sometimes to play table games. Helps also hold mind fresh. When we felt that this was enough, too many people around there and too loud entertainment, when we went to other shopping mall, where I met also with my previous colleagues. We had good time with chatting and talking. Talked about men, work, life and other different things. We had good time until my phone started to sing and when I answered, I got reminder, that I had missed one appointment :D Lucky for me, I was not very far from the place, perhaps 100 meters only, so I just run and had my meeting with one shop assistant. In the end when this meeting end, I had bought 2 shirts. One of them suppose to have this autumns trend color - purple :) I must say, it looked really nice and I felled love on it right a way when I tried it on me. It looked nice and definitely something what I am not used to wear. One reason why I choose it was that I remembered, how once my friend told me, that I should learn to wear the colors, since in her opinion, I hide myself behind dark colors and other reason was, that since I am moving, I wanted something for me to remember my last day in Estonia. I know, I will come here again, to visit, but it is different from time you live and work here. When you come on your vacation to visit the places and people.
When all this shopping was done, I went to Cinema. I thought it would be nice and to do something what feels good. I looked there: "The Ugly Truth" More about film can be read here: The Ugly Truth
This is one film, what was interesting to see :D At least it was fun and not only me, but also other people laughed. Something interesting, since there was not hided the language and seemed like actors said out things as they are :)
Now I am back at home. Have packed some more things. Now almost all is done, just some few small things needs more to pack and when just clean the apartment and give the keys to my landlord. After that I will meet one of my friend for lunch and when will be time to go to boat.
It feels strange to be here right now, when almost all things are packed and I am almost ready to leave. As my boyfriend said, last night for both of us to sleep alone and same time last night as bachelors. From tomorrow starts our time together as real couple, with all it's challenges. The time we both have waited and wanted. Should I afraid or should I be brave, that is a good question. I believe both, since it will be new. I know, I have lived also before abroad, but all beginnings are hard and different. I just know that my boyfriend, my family and friends, his family and friends are hopefully supporting us. I know that so far as much as I have felt, all his friends and family has been taken me well. They have been nice and helpful and that makes the fear to move somewhere in new country bit less, but still that does not mean, that I don't afraid anymore. I do afraid and I must say, I afraid a lot. All will be new and strange for me. Starting with language and when all other things. Need to figure out what would have to be first thing to do, where to go, what institutions to visit. So far I know some things what I need to do and where I need to go, but still in the end, I need to find those places and visit them, talk with people and fill up papers, but I think and so far also feel that all that bureaucracy will be in good cause. So, tomorrow morning, when I wake up, I will be in Estonia and in the evening I will leave my home country to try to make both of us happy. As every relationship needs a lot work, understanding, supporting and so on and on, then also ours, but I believe, if both persons, wants the same thing, when they also work on that directions.
I have been happy to be in Estonia and I know I will be also happy to be my new home. I will be always proud Estonian and that is a feeling, that no one can't ever take away from me. I always will be a Estonian even thought I don't live physically here.

Chat rooms,

How comes that chat rooms, can be something what makes you feel that you are addicted to net and for chat room? It has been long time, since I was self last time on a chat room and talked with people. Today, by looking time now, must say already yesterday, since time has been enemy in that subject.
I feel like I am addicted when I open chat room. When you open it, it makes to remind how it was last time, you start to talk, soon you see people, whom you recognized, that you talked last time with them and when it starts to just go. I had it exactly :D
I tried today to avoid it, since I remembered from last time how it went, but something was stronger than my will to say no :D Perhaps it was also curiosity that reminded last time, how interesting it was and reminded talk with people. It makes also feel, that you can be just yourself and not hide your feelings and emotions behind mask. You can just tell out your anonymous opinion and know, that no one don't know who are you, since usually you make a alien name to use, not your own real name. There will be always that risk, that you might be recognized by someone, but that person can't be 100% sure either, if he/she has not been with you by time you talked at chat room. That feeling makes people to feel free. Sometimes it is very good and people can tell out their own opinion and not fear that someone might dislike self the person.
So, now I need to try to close my chat, finish here the text and go to sleep :D Tomorrow will be again a new day :) Hopefully better than today :P