My road so far,

Now it has been a while, when I have been on my road to get smalle me. It is not an easy road as many people thinking. It takes time and it takes patient. The last thing is, what I do not have so much, since I want everything to happen in a right away. Especially now with me loosing a weight.
From my start in this year, I have lost 44,1 kg and it is a quite a lot I feel and my brain says, but when I was in Estonia last time with my family, when my aunt pointed me out that from my maximum weight I have lost more than I am today.  I have lost totally almost 89 kg. It is unbelievable,  that I have lost a whole person and even more.
This road has been hard and long and it has been just the beginning. Long work is still ahead and much need to be done. One thing I feel what is fun, is to go to shop and buy a new clothes. If before, I just could go selected shops who had clothes for big size, when today I can go any shop I want. Yesterday I visited HM for example and made a found. That nice pink short dress. I do not have to choose anymore the biggest clothes what is in shop. I can choose what ever I want, since I fit in to M and it is very comfortable still. I can say, that I am very happy over it. I never have had that feeling before, since smallest I could fit in was 3xl and so. I had only couple of shops to go and buy clothes, and today I have every shop to go and I can buy what I want and I feel like. But as I said before, it is just beginning. I have still a long road ahead.

When I look the picture up and looking the fist one, what has made in 2012, middle one has been made 2013 and the last one in my new pink dress was made yesterday, when I hope in my heart, that I never will end up as the 2 first pictures of me. It feels like it is totally different person in the last picture and I like little that person. I dare more to go out to have a short dress on me even thought it is totally out of my comfort zone and I had to check that dress is sitting as it has to be, but I felt as a woman with that pink dress today in the city. A feeling, what I do not have felt so often before.
I can say one thing. At least I do not afraid mirror anymore so much as I did before. We will see how it goes. It is still long road ahead.

Love,
          Ingrit

Word's of wisdom,

 

So true can some words to be. It is how I have felt during last year and I am very thankful for those persons, who are still keeping me in their life, but I am also thankful for those who does not do it. It has shown how false persons they are and I am happy that they are not anymore in my life.

Good night and sleep well,

                                           Love,

                                                     Ingrit

Viking ship Sigrid Storråda,

In Saturday me and my husband together with two of our friends had opportunity to sale with viking ship Sigrid Storråda. We left from harbor in Läckö around 12 and was back again after 2,5 hours.
It was amazing and interesting trip. We had opportunity to see Läckö castle in other sides, what we could not have seen before. We also saw beautiful landscape in Sweden and just enjoyed good time. We got bit historical background how the ship was came around almost 20 years ago and we also got self opportunity to paddle that big ship. After that it it was not anymore surprising that in the viking time, it took bit time to sale with those boats. All small details was needed to be in place and everyone had to been in the same tempo, since the short time we could try to paddle with 18 persons in a time, it felt that ship did not go much further. It felt like all took quite a long time. But it was fun to try it. For our surprise, the waves from viking ship was not so big. What affected more that ship was waves from other small boats and scooters.
After our adventure in Värnen, we went to Spiken, so that we could see does we can find something for the evening. No luck there, we went further to Lidköping and bought wish in there, what we barbecued later in the evening. I had never had haddock before and I can say that it tasted really good. I made small mistake with it, but next time I will know better :) We learn from our mistakes or how?
It was a wonderful day with both friends and family. Thank you for a good time!

Love,
          Ingrit

Family time,

I love this Summer. Not for it is warm, because there I still can say, that I love winter, but because I have had possibility to spend 3,5 weeks with them. It is the longest time with them, since I moved back to Sweden. Time, what I really enjoyed and could say quality time. Family time was really needed for me this year after all what has been happened during this year period in my life. Even the thought, that I was so close to possibility that I will never see them anymore, made me enjoy more time with them.
This summer it was really family time with my aunt's family. Time flied so fast, that I had not much possibility to see others. Except my younger brother. It was really good to see him also and spend a whole weekend with them. Just before they left back to their home, we had a good time with grilling and talking.
During my visit in Estonia, I could also see some old places I have been and seen, but also some new ones. All the places I can recommend to visit since it is worth it. Nature in Estonia is beautiful and also places it self what should be experienced. It has been amazing time to see all that beauty. We also visited some eating places and had our fun moments.
Lots of laugh while I was in Estonia and lots of tears from my side when it was time to leave again. It is always hard to go away from family who has been all the time here for me and supported me during all my difficulties. Memories will help through until I will see my family again. Hopefully then I even have time to see my friends again.
Time in Estonia was really well needed. I could recharge my batteries, think about other things and nice things and spend time with the ones who has always been here for me. It was really sad, that I could not meet my friends and other family members, but I am sure that there will be more times I can come to Estonia. If not before, when again in Christmas time. At least that is my plan. It has been a year between the times, when I saw last time my family and I feel self that it is very long time. It was good that I saw my younger brother in Christmas and New year.  Family is all I need around me, since I have learned others comes and goes, only the ones, who really wants to stay in your life, is doing it, but family is always in our lives. I am happy to have my family and to have some special people in my life in here in Sweden as well in Estonia.