Today I am a happy girl. I have got a visit from my home. Today morning I got a phone call from my family member. That call made me very happy, so I changed a little bit my plans and could do everything, what I had planned for today.
Since in outside the weather is as it is, when I had made a plan to fix a bit spring to my home. I had started it with the beautiful tulips on the table together with candles and a friendship stone I got from a very good and close person to me. So when I got my medicines from pharmacy, I also went through the shop and bought a new tablecloth to my coffee table. When I had put it out, it felt like spring has arrived to my home. In the same time the weather outside made me bit sad. I love winter and January is a winter month. It means, that I would prefer to see snow and some minus degrees nor plus and rain. But it is not much to do. Since I can't change weather and weather conditions, when I just have to accept it.
I also got my package today :) I can say only one thing - Me, very happy. I got my new jacket for spring together with some other clothes from Peak Performance. I have never had opportunity to buy a good quality clothes for me, since I was too big and usual size is up to 44 or in some brands up to 46 for beautiful clothes. Now I have so big opportunity to do it. I can go whatever shop I want and buy whatever I want. It feels good, it feels strange but it makes me happy. I am happy that I have got help with my overweight and that I have got a support from my home, from my other family members and from my close friends as well the new ones who has came into my life. Alone that road would have been long, lonely and very hard and I think I would never could manage it. And to choose a bright and light colors, was never on my list either. Before it was dark colors, now it is totally different. I choose bit lighter colors and in some reason my favorite color has became a pink. Me and pink before was something I never could even dream of. Now, I just like to wear it and other colors like orange, blue, light red and other colors.
On the end I feel my day has been fantastic. To have a possibility to talk in Estonian, to spend time with my family has been very good. I did not let the negative part to take over the positive feelings. It is not fun to start to take a strong morphine based painkillers again after I have been clean bit over a 2 months. Life is like that. Nothing to do. Just accept it.
Now, I hope you all have a wonderful evening and good dreams.
Sleep well!
Love,
Ingrit
