Now it has been a while, when I have been on my road to get smalle me. It is not an easy road as many people thinking. It takes time and it takes patient. The last thing is, what I do not have so much, since I want everything to happen in a right away. Especially now with me loosing a weight.
From my start in this year, I have lost 44,1 kg and it is a quite a lot I feel and my brain says, but when I was in Estonia last time with my family, when my aunt pointed me out that from my maximum weight I have lost more than I am today. I have lost totally almost 89 kg. It is unbelievable, that I have lost a whole person and even more.
This road has been hard and long and it has been just the beginning. Long work is still ahead and much need to be done. One thing I feel what is fun, is to go to shop and buy a new clothes. If before, I just could go selected shops who had clothes for big size, when today I can go any shop I want. Yesterday I visited HM for example and made a found. That nice pink short dress. I do not have to choose anymore the biggest clothes what is in shop. I can choose what ever I want, since I fit in to M and it is very comfortable still. I can say, that I am very happy over it. I never have had that feeling before, since smallest I could fit in was 3xl and so. I had only couple of shops to go and buy clothes, and today I have every shop to go and I can buy what I want and I feel like. But as I said before, it is just beginning. I have still a long road ahead.
When I look the picture up and looking the fist one, what has made in 2012, middle one has been made 2013 and the last one in my new pink dress was made yesterday, when I hope in my heart, that I never will end up as the 2 first pictures of me. It feels like it is totally different person in the last picture and I like little that person. I dare more to go out to have a short dress on me even thought it is totally out of my comfort zone and I had to check that dress is sitting as it has to be, but I felt as a woman with that pink dress today in the city. A feeling, what I do not have felt so often before.
I can say one thing. At least I do not afraid mirror anymore so much as I did before. We will see how it goes. It is still long road ahead.
Love,
Ingrit
