Last night in Tallinn and in Estonia,

So, now is time for me, to write last time from Tallinn to my web diary. Tomorrow evening I will sail over The Baltic Sea to Sweden. Tomorrow I will leave my homeland and will go and take new challenges in my life.
Many of my friends and relatives have been asked, how do I feel and how I have planned spend my last night at Tallinn or in Estonia. Should I spend it quietly or should I spend it with big party, alcohol and who knows, perhaps with a hangover tomorrow morning :D Answer is simple, I try to take all what I can from my last day.
In the morning I was try to sleep bit longer, but I think that all excitement and emotions, I did not succeed on that very well. In the midday, I had agreement with one of my long time friend, that we will have lunch together. We did, but I don't know, how I will wait Christmas, since we ate Rudolf :D But it had aftertaste for skin :D Still I must admit, it tasted interesting, so this Christmas Rudolf does not drive with Santa Claus :D
After I met with my other friend and we went to see the new shopping mall, what was opened for people today morning. It was mistake :D Felt like all Tallinn was there since it was totally crowded, but still I manage to spend a little money there and buy 2 expansions for one table game and one game what can play when you travel. It is good sometimes to play table games. Helps also hold mind fresh. When we felt that this was enough, too many people around there and too loud entertainment, when we went to other shopping mall, where I met also with my previous colleagues. We had good time with chatting and talking. Talked about men, work, life and other different things. We had good time until my phone started to sing and when I answered, I got reminder, that I had missed one appointment :D Lucky for me, I was not very far from the place, perhaps 100 meters only, so I just run and had my meeting with one shop assistant. In the end when this meeting end, I had bought 2 shirts. One of them suppose to have this autumns trend color - purple :) I must say, it looked really nice and I felled love on it right a way when I tried it on me. It looked nice and definitely something what I am not used to wear. One reason why I choose it was that I remembered, how once my friend told me, that I should learn to wear the colors, since in her opinion, I hide myself behind dark colors and other reason was, that since I am moving, I wanted something for me to remember my last day in Estonia. I know, I will come here again, to visit, but it is different from time you live and work here. When you come on your vacation to visit the places and people.
When all this shopping was done, I went to Cinema. I thought it would be nice and to do something what feels good. I looked there: "The Ugly Truth" More about film can be read here: The Ugly Truth
This is one film, what was interesting to see :D At least it was fun and not only me, but also other people laughed. Something interesting, since there was not hided the language and seemed like actors said out things as they are :)
Now I am back at home. Have packed some more things. Now almost all is done, just some few small things needs more to pack and when just clean the apartment and give the keys to my landlord. After that I will meet one of my friend for lunch and when will be time to go to boat.
It feels strange to be here right now, when almost all things are packed and I am almost ready to leave. As my boyfriend said, last night for both of us to sleep alone and same time last night as bachelors. From tomorrow starts our time together as real couple, with all it's challenges. The time we both have waited and wanted. Should I afraid or should I be brave, that is a good question. I believe both, since it will be new. I know, I have lived also before abroad, but all beginnings are hard and different. I just know that my boyfriend, my family and friends, his family and friends are hopefully supporting us. I know that so far as much as I have felt, all his friends and family has been taken me well. They have been nice and helpful and that makes the fear to move somewhere in new country bit less, but still that does not mean, that I don't afraid anymore. I do afraid and I must say, I afraid a lot. All will be new and strange for me. Starting with language and when all other things. Need to figure out what would have to be first thing to do, where to go, what institutions to visit. So far I know some things what I need to do and where I need to go, but still in the end, I need to find those places and visit them, talk with people and fill up papers, but I think and so far also feel that all that bureaucracy will be in good cause. So, tomorrow morning, when I wake up, I will be in Estonia and in the evening I will leave my home country to try to make both of us happy. As every relationship needs a lot work, understanding, supporting and so on and on, then also ours, but I believe, if both persons, wants the same thing, when they also work on that directions.
I have been happy to be in Estonia and I know I will be also happy to be my new home. I will be always proud Estonian and that is a feeling, that no one can't ever take away from me. I always will be a Estonian even thought I don't live physically here.

Chat rooms,

How comes that chat rooms, can be something what makes you feel that you are addicted to net and for chat room? It has been long time, since I was self last time on a chat room and talked with people. Today, by looking time now, must say already yesterday, since time has been enemy in that subject.
I feel like I am addicted when I open chat room. When you open it, it makes to remind how it was last time, you start to talk, soon you see people, whom you recognized, that you talked last time with them and when it starts to just go. I had it exactly :D
I tried today to avoid it, since I remembered from last time how it went, but something was stronger than my will to say no :D Perhaps it was also curiosity that reminded last time, how interesting it was and reminded talk with people. It makes also feel, that you can be just yourself and not hide your feelings and emotions behind mask. You can just tell out your anonymous opinion and know, that no one don't know who are you, since usually you make a alien name to use, not your own real name. There will be always that risk, that you might be recognized by someone, but that person can't be 100% sure either, if he/she has not been with you by time you talked at chat room. That feeling makes people to feel free. Sometimes it is very good and people can tell out their own opinion and not fear that someone might dislike self the person.
So, now I need to try to close my chat, finish here the text and go to sleep :D Tomorrow will be again a new day :) Hopefully better than today :P

Summer 2009

It has been for a while, I wrote last time here. With that time, has been happen so many different things. I have enjoyed nice summer in Estonia. Have been cooked bit time at beach, so that after I looked out like a red lobster :) It was just very very painful after that couple of days ;) :P
It also has been good summer, what I have spend and enjoyed with my friends and family. It has made feeling well and relaxed. Most thing what I have enjoyed in August, was 3 weeks together with my boyfriend. It felt so good. By now, almost all my family members have met him and so far they also like him. I tried to scare my boyfriend away with my aunt, but that did not succeed :D It ended on the other hand, that my aunt likes him :D At least now I know how easy is to buy people away with nice and friendly smile and of course I can't forget part what helped my boyfriend as well and of course it was Smokehead at the car on the way home from Latvia.
This summer has been also bit travelling. First we travelled bit around in South-Estonia with my boyfriend, spend good times in the evening with my family by barbecue, real Estonian sauna, small bonfire. We visited also with him and my aunt Turaida and Sigulda in Latvia and week after had 5 active days with my partner and his friends around here in Estonia. So, now I also can say that I have been in Narva, what is as close to Russia as it can be. Just only bridge between Narva and Ivanvgorod. We also visited highest waterfall in Estonia and it was really beautiful. Also visited Haapsalu and of course Tallinn. Also have been spend a week of my holiday in Sweden. It was first time I took that trip almost all way with car, why almost, is simple reason. There has to cross first the Baltic sea with a ferry and in some strange reason it is monopoly by Tallink who travels that way directly and that is sad. I hope that one day there is more different companies who sails between Stockholm and Tallinn and not only Tallink. Perhaps also Viking Line, in my opinion they are nice and friendly company :)
By the end, it has been nice summer what I have enjoyed a lot. Also this summer has been quite nice with sun and nice warm weather. So this year can't say that it has been same as Autumn, as we usually say ;)

Makeover day,

So today finally I took and killed Blond person inside me. I thought that if my life changes and has planned to changes, that when I as well need to make some changes. Changes can be good and bad, but I do hope and as well think and believe, that the change I made today was very good for me. It is of course my own opinion, but usually it is Me and my opinion what counts in the end of the day. I admit I listen also people around me, who are very important for me and dear to me, but I also know that they are in the end wishing me all to be good. They don't want bad things to happen to me. I know, it is their way to protect me.
So, for a while ago, I decided that before my vacation, I will want to have changes in my life and that this first longer vacation together with my partner would be nice and good for both of us.
Here is pictures of my changes, what was made today with me. I will add a picture before and after of me:

Here is pictures of me Before today:





And here is pictures of me After today:

The Botanical Garden in Tartu,

Last weekend I visited my best friend in Tartu. I had been several times during this year there and we had planned to visit one place, but every time we wanted to go to The Botanical Garden, when weather was against us s well time. Finally last weekend we had opportunity to visit the place and I must say, it was very beautiful. I really liked it. I could not remember much, since last time I visited that place I was small and was still going on primary school. I was happy to visit that place again, since it was very beautiful, at least that is my opinion. I will also add pictures about the place. That visit made me to wish to have self a garden and see how beautiful flowers there can be put to grow.

Here I will also add some information about The Botanical Garden:
The Botanical Garden of the University of Tartu was founded in 1803, near what is now the Vanemuine Old Theatre House. In 1806 the garden was relocated to more suitable site, on the ruins of the ancient city wall and fortifications near the river and ponds. The first director of the garden was Prof. Gottfried Albrecht Germann and the first chief gardener in duty was Johann Anton Weinmann. The first master plan of the Garden was made by Weinmann and it serves till nowadays. In 1811 Prof. Carl Friedrich Ledebour was nominated the director. Under his active leadership, the collections of the Garden were enriched by many new species, collected from Siberia and other unexplored regions of the Russian Empire, and firstly described by Ledebour. Most of them reached Western Europe via our Garden. Many other famous botanists as Trautvetter, Maximovicz, Bunge, Russow, Kuznetsov, Lippmaa have contributed to the development of this marvelous Garden. The Garden contains several monuments gratefully reviving the memory of our forerunners contribution.
More information and also other things can be read self at: